the 2ww is sooo tough but most of us do give in and do the hpt, hpt can be so unreliable,
Different ones read different levels. Thats why your best to wait til your beta before you give up hope. I'm not one to give false hope but there has been women on here who has even tested neg on hpt on the day of beta and then gone on to get the BFP.
So fingers
crossed for you this is the case, I got my bfn 2 wks ago and i was guttered but im more determined now, and doing another fet in oct.
Its not over til your beta says so, try to keep strong and hang in there, x