I don't post on here that much. I just needed to say how sad i feel today:( It had been 3 years ttc for my hubby and me. I just can't get the dark cloud of sadness away. I know many of you have been on the ttc rat race for longer and i'm wondering how you all cope with it. I have periods of time were i'm ok, even going to friends and family's kids parties and baptisms don't hurt anymore. It's just every now and then my heart really hurts. I just really fear that i will never get that bfp i have been waiting so long for. My lap surgery is the end of Aug and i think i will have to wait at least another month to start fertility treatments again, which is another bug bear of mine. I feel like i have been waiting for 3 years. Every time we have a plan, something happens to delay it. Sorry if i'm moaning too much ladies, i just feel like i'm ready to explode. I hope tomorrow is a more positive day for me, i hate to feel like this.