bleeding

[micallyson]

hi there i had 2 embryos transfered on the 3rd due test on the 16th i started to bleed heavy to day the
14 th day is this me haveing my period or is it the linning from the womb me scared i did a test on the 10th it was negtive

[micallyson]

I am so so sorry my heart goes out to you  i am glad you are going to try again and not let age get to you i am trying a gaine this time on short cycle sorry not been around for a while been off line p.s i live in the uk where are you  

[Panda404]

Dear micallyson and other friends: there is so much to tell I can only summarize. We got a BFP on Oct. 24. My hcg numbers rose perfectly for 1/12 weeks! Suddenly, this last Monday (11/5) my hcg level stopped doubling and barely rose. Bad sign. Yesterday (Wed) I  went in panicky for our first ultrasound (5.5weeks.) I had the blood draw and the u/s in the AM. The scan showed a gestational sac and beginning yolk sac. My doc was encouraged but still concerned about the hcg. And, in the afternoon the hcg results came back--barely rose at all in 48 hrs. Yesterday evening the RE called and said for us to prepare for the worst. Diagnosis: blighted ovum. So, I have stopped the progesterone shots and I am now waiting to m/c. My RE says that this is what happens when the embryo stops developing normally. The numbers start to slow and then plateau and then drop. So, I am a sortof shell-shocked. I asked the RE whether there is any reason to hope and he said not really. He also said, I am sorry to have to give you this bad news but I want to pat you on the back for getting pregnant and encourage you to try again. Those are important words because I am 42. Still, no baby is no baby. I don't care how many odds I beat to get this far. So, I am in a weird place right now. I have pregnancy symptoms and no cramping or bleeding yet. My doc said I could get a D&C when I am ready but I guess if I am not bleeding I would want to have another u/s just to make sure we do not have a healthy looking baby in there. Anyway, the tears are somewhere in there--waiting to come out--but I have not really been able to cry yet. Truthfully I am just stunned.

[micallyson]

hi i have wrote this 3 times and it kept deleting at the end third time luck you sound more up beat today !!! I am not sure if you would fell them snuggle down ??? You just have to stay calm over the next tww dont stress just take it easyi will be thung of you on the 25/10 I am off to the doctores on the 26/10 to see what we do next i no they dont take anyone one after the end of october due to xmas and not a lot of staff so i am going to see if i can start again in jan 08 ?? I am still haveing that sick feeling after ieat or before even smells are makeing me feel sick so i am going to do another test tomorrow sat just to be sure !!! its goodyou have your mum to chat to we did not tell any one and its is hard not to tell anyone doing the vists and jabs and have no one to chat to about it you are luckly i am sure you are going to be fine i am think of you and yes i think we all live in fairy land dureing the tww we all look for stuff and hope it great so your not alone  i was allways crying  looking for faults trying to fell in they where there talking to my stomach so we are all space heads have a nice weekend enjoy the fact you could be xxxx

[Panda404]

hi- so what's the status for you at this point? Did the clinic confirm the cause of your bleeding yet? Is it definitely your period? If so I am sure you're hurting and I am sending you some positive energy. I woke up this morning and felt nothing...again. No implantation bleeding--if I were going to get it, I believe it should have already happened because the little things should have burrowed in by now if they were ever going to in the first place. Even though I know that does not prove anything I am trying to stay out of fantasy-land and in reality as much as I can. Some people don't bleed from the implantation--but of course I am looking for any sign. I appreciate your story about your friend who is 45. That shows that older women still have a chance. It's tough to get anybody to come right out and say that in the medical field. Right now the big question in my mind is....how am I going to make it thru the rest of this 2ww? My test is on Thursday 10/25. My mom is helping--she calls everyday and encourages me to be positive. So I am treading a line right now between hoping too much and being too gloomy. I confess I am better at the gloomy part--my dh tells me that I have a hard time with hope. But today I am going to try to have a more upbeat attitude. I am going to work in a few minutes and I will try to forget all this for a few hours. And I will stop looking obsessively for bleeding. Thanks for your messages.

[micallyson]

hi you well what can i say i was the same i was looking for any thing that looked wrong was ok up till the implant. i do feel my doctor and nurses let me down i was not imfored as much as i have lernt from the net you are wright this is a dangerous place!! but it also helps I have a work frend who is 45 and her ivf worked on the third try i have heaed and seen post thats it is the 2nd and 3rd time that work so how noes . but what i can tell you is that i stresed so much i no i did and that is no good so calm down stop worrying try to relax and thing of xmas take your mind off it it will pass quicker and do you a lot of good.progesterone is akiller i had sore sore boobs sickness all the time as we no it all done to that drug and is very confus as it gett your body all over the place. you are just doing what you feel by worring we all do it your not a head space. just relax and have a good weekend keep me posted i am here for you !! XX

[Panda404]

hi- Well, I am ok I guess. But I am starting to scare myself with the amount that I am obsessing. I was doing so great up until this point. I did not mind the stim shots, all my office visits were smooth (and always very good news) we got the eggs, the embryos, etc. so I guess I started building up alot of hope. Then, I started reading more about our poor odds. (The internet is a dangerous place!) I keep reading that at 42 you beat all the odds with FSH, reserve, response, embryo quality, etc. and still you have a very, very small chance of success. So all I have been doing for 48 hours is checking for implantation bleeding over and over again. I called my younger sister who told me that she never did have any when she was pregnant. But I just don't have any symptoms other that sore boobs--and I know that's from the progesterone. So, anyway as you can see I am getting really weird. My dh keeps telling me to intellectualize it. He shrugs it off saying that if these 2 don't work we will go back and get our other three frozen ones. If they don't work we'll keep trying. But I am completely obsessing over the BFN that I think I am going to get. Last night I hid in the bathroom and cried and cried. I did not want to lay it all on dh as he has been a real trooper so far. He tries but he does not get it--and that's alright. He's been great through this whole thing. I feel like because there is no cramping, my leftover cysts (from stims) are resolved, and I am basically asymptomatic--nothing!!!!,  then we have failed. So you see what kind of head space I am in. Thanks for caring.

[micallyson]

hi hope you are ok today and feeling fine, i was feeling rather sick so me still not sure if thats the drugs stil in my system, my nurse said i should do another test on just to makesure  so we will see but i am praying your tww goes quick and you get the result you want let me now !!! i am here if you want to chat  

[Panda404]

Thanks for your kind words. I appreciate being able to talk to others who know what the stress is like. One thing I know for sure is that if these two embryos don't make it they were not meant to---in other words, there was something not right with them. Anyway, I am in the situation where if I get any bleeding from implantation it's going to be close to the same time I should have gotten my period, so it's going to freak me out. But, it'll also be the day I go get the test. It sounds like you will be able to make more eggs if you need them. I wish you the very best!

[micallyson]

I wish you all the luck in the world I am 38 i had four eggs 3 respon and on implant day 2had got to the 4 cell stage they where transferred on the 3rd and  i was feeling sick and happy then on friday was felling funny sat spotting sun full blow bleed and today clin told me i have lost them take a break and try again in jan 08 i was gutted but they told me still do test tomorrow or when bleed stops as you never no !!!!! i am still feeling sick so how no"s I was the same i never  hoped for any thing more than this  i will not give up and let the age thing beat me!!!! so i say well done to you at 42 you go girl !!!! let me now how you get on the tww is hard it the hardest think i have ever done you seem to have luck on your side

[Panda404]

I am 42. I never even thought I had a chance. We transferred 2 good quality embryos yesterday. All I ever hear is that the odds for someone my age are terrible--but we have been blessed so far--good FSH, good sperm, good response, 7 eggs, 5 embryos (2 transferred and 3 frozen). I still can't believe any of this! I ended up in the ivf clinic because I had a bi-lateral tube-ectomy awhile back so I can't conceive naturally. I am beginning to wonder whether we are about to hit the age wall with implantation. I have never hoped for anything more than the success of this processAny thoughts?

[micallyson]

i was on  progesterone but i got a neg result on friday and called the clince the nurse said i could stop the prog but stay on the steriods and metaformin  me wa not sure if this is a period and there no baby or if its just the drugs or if its the womb linung due to the 2embryos

[40smama]

If you're taking progesterone, you shouldn't have a period but I would definitely call your re & let him or her know what's going on.