Frustrated (venting)

[maybebaby29]

2nd round IUI. Clomid + trigger. Monitoring this time. Everything looked great. LH was great. Sperm count great. No cramps this time with IUI. Trigger made me feel the egg release. 3 follicles (19, 13, 13)

Day 8 DPIUI??? Not one @$# symptom. Nothing. Nada. Backache but I sit all day so no wonder why I have a backache. Crabbiness yesterday and today. But had that last time. Heck, I even had implantation spotting last time. This time? Nothing. Not even good egg white CM. Last time, I was a mess. hahaha.

Last time I had every symptom of pregnancy after my IUI and got a BFN. This time? Zero symptoms so I feel like it's going to be another BFN.

I'm so mad. I just feel like my body teases me. I have zero answers as to why I can't get pregnant. Husband's friend announcement dinner tonight and I'm just starting to feel b*tchy about it because I know they'll ask what the problem is. I don't have an answer.

And I think part of my crabbiness is that we have one more IUI if this one doesn't take and that's it. After that, it's off to IVF and I so don't want to do it but we have zero money for adoption and I really want to give it my all in trying for my own. I know that sounds mean, especially since I'm adopted, but I finally get what a friend of ours said when she went through IVF--she wanted her own.

Sigh and grrrrr.

[bny807]

I know all of these ups and downs are soooo incredibly tough with this whole ttc thing!! But I think that if you got a BFN last cycle with all of those symptoms that its a good thing your not having all the same symptoms as last month since it ended with BFN!    Change from the normal BFN symptoms might mean something big!!!! a BFP!!! lots of people i  know had fewer actually NO symptoms on their BFP month! I hope this is it for yall!!! GOOD LUCK!!! keep us updated!!  

[mommyof3andhopefully4]

I'm with bny.....I think this could be a good thing.  You aren't feeling anything, which means you aren't feeling any PMS symptoms either.  Most people don't get any symptoms until 13-14 dpIUI or O.  I think you need to stay positive....it ain't over till it's over.

Heather

[maybebaby29]

Thanks guys for the support. I know it's early and I sound whiney. The only on and off symptom I have is crabbiness but it isn't out of the ordinary. I know my husband agrees with the both of you. Who knows. I'll keep you posted. Thank you for the support.

[maybebaby29]

Update...

Went to my husband's best friend's pregnancy annoucement (just the 4 of us). Guess what? She got pregnant on HER FIRST TRY. I thought it was 4 months trying. Nope. Did it once, bam, it worked.

I know it's rare but come on.