stress and fibro

[michele1999]

Help I've just left my relationship of 10 yrs  My stress level is pouring over my emotions are all over the place and my pain level is out of control. If I could just scream but I can't even talk barely surviving this pain emotionally and physically I think I need someone to talk to. Sorry but i don't have family that can help they have their own stuff. Please words of wisdom, stories that relate he really thinks I can put my pain on hold so he can have a good time on the weekends I know what that means about him. Anybody want to talk to listen to me whine cry I know this is pobably a good thing for me but I'm devastated. Yes we need to stay broken up too many hurts and names called and bruises although not for many years the bruises I mean. I love him and who is going to want a disabled broken down 50 yr old woman. It's ok I just needed to write it down maybe see it in black and white I'm sad beyond words.

[Suzzie205]

Go ahead and vent we all need to. Sorry you are going through all this. Do you have Fibro? I have had to leave 2 bad marriages in the past, so I know your  pain. You asked who would want a broken down 50 year old woman. Well, my husband is standing by me "so far", but I know what you mean. I ask myself everyday, why is he still here? Do I have any words of wisdom? No! I wish I did cuz I would share them with you. All I can say is I'm trying to help you and I can't even help myself ,but when I read your post I felt I needed to respond to it so that your would know that everyone on this site is on your side and I'm sure wishes you well. I pray that things get better for you and I'm sorry you are so sad. By the way both my marriages were 10 year too. Hopefully I was a little help. BIG HUGS to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[michele1999]

Thanks and yes I have fibro,lumbar spinal stenosis, osteoenia and CFS not happy today having a real difficult time my emotions are way out of control I always try to keep myself in check. Can't today though. I glad your husband is standing by you it's hard when you're all alone like me. Like I said maybe this is for the best he didn't undestand my pain all he said was I'm in pain too. Maybe I can concentrate on me for a while and not his problems and his pain. Yah I need to vent alright so please everyone who reads this bear with me. Thanks again for your help and hugs. Michele1999

[Caroline565]

Hi Michelle. I can understand your pain on both levels. It is hard to control our emotions at times like this and we do have to allow ourselves time to get over the sadness and disappointment but we also have to remember that stress really makes things worse for us. Ten years is a long-term relationship but it would be worse to continue on and break up later as he would have wasted even more of your time. You can go on without him and I think it is a good idea to concentrate on yourself and find new interests. You're only 50, your life is far from over! There are few people in their fifties and sixties that are free from any health issues, so don't refer to yourself as "broken down". It is the way we manage our physical problems and our attitudes that matter. Being alone can be a little scary at times, but we really do possess that inner strength to carry on and usually evolve a much stronger person. I am wishing you all the best and hope that soon you will feel able to move on with your life.

[michele1999]

the sun came out either friday or saturday its been out since pain level much better im lonely but the sun helps. signed release for medical records from 1st doctor that sent me into Boston maybe now with new primary  have appt 7/16 show her what that doctor diagnosed i've gone full circle so i'm going to try things my way instead of the doctors way i want to see what they(drs) are writing in black and white for myself. I'm tired of not feeling well to do simple things and being a guinea pig for medications that don't work. I'm going to tell and show them what i'm talking about. I'm going to sign a release for each dr i've seen. when I get all the info then I'll go on the attack. Hope I get some results from this different track. Wish me luck on my new adventure. All My Prayers,
Michele

[RNRita]

Good luck, Michele!  I feel your pain.....and mine, too.....lol.

[kelly50679]

Hi Michele,
I have fibro, depression, going thru the menopause and have anemia due to lack of b12.
The point is I left my partner after 10 years....I just walked out....I had nowhere to live, I had 1 suitcase and my bike...I walked out at the worst time..we were having floods and had no water in our taps that was safe to drink or even bathe in. I luckily I had a few sofas offered me to sleep on, my son gave up his bed for me as well. My ex wouldn't let me have any of my stuff and I had to leave my 2 cats behind and haven't seen then since as he wouldn't let me near the house. I managed to get myself a flat and even found my soul mate..who doesn't always understand my illness but he's getting better. We are getting married in sept on my 50th birthday, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel. We may feel clapped out half the time but don't give up on anything.  I always think. ' I haven't got cancer, I'm not dying', So it could be a lot worse. take care hun,