Previously you talked a LOT about HIV here and in the other forum. You expressed a lot of anxiety about it, and it appears it still holds. You really do need to get tested for the sake of yourself and for those around you.
I am talking about CFIDS not HIV
As I said:
Please get an HIV test. You are worried about that, and no one here can tell you if you have it. Symptoms aren't how you diagose HIV, and you know that. Also you need to change/get help for your sex habits. They are stressing you out, and for reason. You also owe it to your wife to get tested. It's cruel, not to let her know about risk, if you have it. Please get yourself adequate help. There are many confidential ways to get an HIV test.