If anyone can tell me anything, I'd be more than grateful. I've already read a lot about all of this, and have no idea what's wrong with me unless it's some kind of
proctitisProctitis
Proctitis - streptococcal.
About 2 weeks ago, I had a minor cold. Since then I've had a host of stomach/gi problems, mostly centered around the glands on my
groinGroin lump
Groin pain
Groin stretch
Jock itch
Swollen lymph nodes in the groin. However, two weeks ago, I became aware of a constant sense of awareness /
pressurePressure ulcer (not exactly pain) in my lower back, it feels like it's right under my
tailboneTailbone trauma. This is constant, and is affecting my ability to work / do the things I enjoy.
I've been to a clinc 3 times and an ER. A CT series was done to rule out appendicitus and some other things, and a prostate exam was done to rule out prostititus. Blood work has been done; no infection / etc.
This is maddening. It consumes my thoughts 99% of the day. It isn't exactly pain, as much as an awareness of my lower back (rectum?), and a feeling sort of like I have to go to the bathroom, even though I do not.
I've had a lot of blood work done, whch would rule out bacterial agents. Other than the tube used for CT prep, I haven't been sticking anything up there that I shouldn't. I was a bit constipated two weeks ago when this all started.
What's wrong with me / will it ever get better? One thing I've noticed is that
marijuanaDrug abuse either makes this symptom worse, or heightens my awareness of it -- in either case, I've had to give it up, which bothers me both because I enjoy it and because it's usually a solution to GI problems for me, not a cause.
I'm totally at my wit's end with this. At night I start to have fantasies about
suicideSuicide and suicidal behavior, which seems ludicrous, but I can't live like this. I'm supposed to see my 'real' doctor on Tuesday, and will probably be referred to a gastroentrologist for a colonoscopy to look for crohn's and colitis, but in the mean time, what can I do to feel better? It's like there's a knawing tingling in my backside that I cannot eliminate.
If any of this helps:
I don't drink alcohol much
I've been taking Klonopin for 4 years, have gradually been going off of it lately. Have stopped efforts to cut dose as a result of whatever is going on.
I've been smoking marijuana pretty regularily for 5 years, this is the first time it's caused me any distress.
I may have been under a bit of stress lately, but it's mostly been stress related to this condition!
Short of giving myself an enema with lidocaine, what can I do?