stomach

[kari257]

I am 20 years old and have been suffering from colitis for about 2 years now. It has recently gotten really bad. I went to Africa 2 summers ago and brought back an intestinal parasite, after i got rid of the parasite i was hit with c diff. Ever since all this has happend i have not been the same. I not only get sick often but i dont feel like i can go on with my life. i feel like i am always cancelling something because of my stomach. I have developed a fear of being trapped and having to go to the bathroom. Every time i have gas i panic because im afraid more than whiff of air might come out. I am constantly thinking about my stomach, and it has becoming such a pain and i feel like no one understands. i dont ever want to get in a car with someone fearing that i might have to get them to pullover. Traffic is the WORST thing ever. It's like right when i realize i am trapped and can't go i start to literally have panic attacks and immediately have to go. I hate going out to eat because i have a fear of getting sick while i am eating or having to go to the bathroom on the way home. Pretty much this has ruined my life and i can't ever get it out of my mind. I have been dating my boyfriend for 3 years and i know we will get engaged soon but i am scared to death to walk down the isle fearing that i am going to get sick. I am a very anxious person and i know this doesn't help. Is there any kind of medicine i can take for panic attacks or to mentally calm me?