I found your comment really helpful. My mum has died recently, I am an only child and all my aunts, uncles etc have died so I have little family left. it now feels wierd and sad. I miss my mum like crazy - everything reminds me of her. I think you sound a very brave and positive person and I hope you continue to thrive.
My dad died when I was 27 and it felt terrible - I can still remember, though it is a long time ago. I have been thinking about it more as I have recently lost my mum. I don't really have any answers for you - just that I know it is hellish and you are at a very early stage in your grief so you must be kind to yourself and talk a lot about your feelings.and try and do what makes you feel good.
Hi Ms Kentucky. I truly understand your grief for the loss of your father. Try to remember the happy times...times like now during the holidays and always remember that what your Dad died of was from a disease that you could not help. His decisions to drink to his death was his doings. His love and cravings for alcohol was greater than anything else. I do not know what type of relationship you had. For me, my Father died about 8 years ago caused by drinking and smoking. The sad part was that he disowned me and I never got to say goodbye or how he made me laugh when I was a child. Never really knew what I did to deserve this. Right now I have no family and I live alone. It tears at my heart to not be able to call anyone on Christmas morning to say "Merry Christmas" or just to talk. But I am doing good as I am living my life, a happy life with my dogs and cats. They give me the unconditional love I never received from my family. Try to focus your love with your other family members and immediate family. Yes, I miss my family so much, but I love my life more and I will not be taken into the depression tunnel because of situation I cannot control. Do things that makes you happy. Smile. Make friends and love life. There is so much good in this world... don't trust FOX and CNN. Time will heal some but remember your Father drank allot. His did this. I hope you have others that are close to you. :)