Well, I'm 17 and I lost my uncle April 19th 2008 to suicide (two years last monday). It seems like it just hit me that he's gone forever. I've pretty much cried everyday since last week. I keep hearing the conversation I had with my grand-mother when she first found out what he did. The worst part is, he did it because of my grandfather's death the year before. My dad, and his brothers and sisters were all after him because he was stealing from my grandfather's will (lets say he left something for my dad, well he (my uncle) would take it and hide it).
So on the morning of april 19th, he made a meeting to appologize to his siblings, said he loved them a lot, then left. No one had seen him for 4 hours, so they started to look for him. They went to his house, and in the woods. My aunt found him hanging from a tree. She started doing CPR, but it was no use. My grandmother called, she was crying and wanting to talk to my dad. So I said, he will call you in 5 minutes (I did not know what was going on). Then she called back 2-3 minutes later saying, "I want to talk to him now" and repeating those words. So I ran upstairs and told my dad to hurry (he was in the shower). He took the phone, and I went downstairs. Few seconds later, my dad starts screaming for my mom to come upstairs. When she did, I heard him say, drive me to his house NOW !, so they both ran downstairs crying. I still did not know what was going on ..
Since that day, I haven't been myself. I started skipping school and failing courses (I could not concentrate). But then I switched school and everything has been better. Until last week, I can't concentrate (I keep hearing the conversation on the phone with my grandma) .. I've been crying almost everyday, and waking up in the middle of the night crying (once again, because of the convo.)
Does anyone know what helps deal with the loss of someone very close to you?