My Baby Girl

[Donna2420]

I lost my baby on Dec.6,2002. She was stillborn. I went to the hospital to have a nonstress test done after the test the doctors wanted to do an ultrasound.After the ultrasound the doctors said I had low fluid,mine was 2. The doctors admitted me right away and started induction.My little girl was fine until around 8:00 that night when she was in distress.the dotors never told me what was going on. My baby was face up also.15min. prior to delivery she died.I was 9 months and 6 days.The doctors used forceps to delivery her. I pushed 3 hours and never made progess.When I found out the what happened it killed me I found out that the doctors should have done an emergency c-section. I had a placenta abruption during labor.

[luvkayln]

I too just lost my daughter, Kayln. She was also stillborn due to a cord accident. I delivered her naturally on Dec 17, 2007. On Dec 16, i hadn't felt her move all day. It seemed very strange to me, because she always wakes me up, and she didn't. I didn't really look too much into it, because just the night before she had the hiccups and was moving all around as she always did. So i cleaned the house, and when i finally took a break to sit down, she still didn't move. She always did that, if i was very active and then sat down, she went haywire in there. So at 5 pm i called the ER and the doctor said to drink soda to get her moving, didn't work. At 9 pm, i finally went to the ER and they couldn't find her heartbeat. I was so devastated! There are absolutely no words to describe how you feel when you're told your baby is no longer with us. It still feels like a bad dream, a nightmare. I delievered her at 4:35, i really didn't know how i would emotionally deal with seeing her. But as soon as she came out, it was instinct, i just reached my arms out to my beautiful baby. I actually felt very happy. My baby was finally here, i finally got to hold her in my arms and kiss her precious face! Family came and everyone held her, and we got tons of pictures of her. She just looked like a sleeping angel, just so beautiful! The hardest part is when they came and took her away at midnight, and that's still the hardest part. Is not having her here physically to hold and kiss. She is alive in my heart, i feel her there everyday. She will have my love forever, and i know God is taking care of her until i can get there to take over. They say time eases pain. Well i can say that time has not eased my pain, i've just adapted to not having my daughter here. People can understand your pain, but only someone that has experienced it themselves truely know what loss is. I'm so sorry for all of you that have been through the loss of your child. I will keep everyone in my prayers. God will take care of us! Find strength in Him, He will always be there.

[nikki861]

over the last 16years I have read many poems and such about a child's death. I have never read that one before. IT IS BEAUTIFUL!! Thanks for sharing it with us.

Erin Nichole 1986-1992

[Oddbod]

I lost a son at 20 weeks over 16 months ago now. I seem to have lapsed a bit recently and have taken great comfort from your words. You do feel guilty and blame yourself even though you couldn't have done anything differently.
Thanks. xx

[cindy82]

about the same happened to me. sorry for your losses

I'LL BE THERE
Daddy, please don't look so sad, Momma please don't cry 'Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies. Please, try not to question God, don't think He is unkind. Don't think He sent me to you, and then He changed His mind. You see, I am a Special Child, and I'm needed up above. I'm the Special gift you have Him, the product of your love. I'll always be there with you, and watch the sky at night. Find the brightest star that's gleaming, That's my halo's brilliant light. You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your window pane. That's me, in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain. When you feel a little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows. That's me, I'll be there, planting a kiss on your nose. When you see a child playing, and your heart feels a little tug, That's me, I'll be there giving your heart a hug. So Daddy, please don't look so sad, Momma don't you cry. I'm in the arms of Jesus, and He sings me lullabies.

[kim1022]

Oh Donna, I feel your pain all too well.  I just lost a baby girl at 41 weeks pregnant with no answers.  I went in on the Monday for my reg doctors appt and an ultrasound and everything was great.  Waiting for her to come naturally.  On the Wednesday, I didn't feel her move all day, went in for a stress test to only find out I had lost her...she was no longer with us.  The sent me on to a larger center to induce me and it took me 2 days to deliver her...finally Friday morning I gave birth to her.  When they first found she was no longer with us on the Wednesday, the doctor thought it was the cord, whether it knotted or was wrapped around her neck.  He couldn't say for sure until I delivered her.  I had her and there was no knot in the cord and the cord was not around her neck.  I am still going through many stages of greif and is too killing me.  I wish I had an answer....but would that make it any easier?  HUGS!!!!