It's so sad what happens to a family when mum passes on. You are but one person and can only do so much, so don't put too much pressure on yourself to do more. Don't worry about the ring, your mum is watching and will see what matters most to who. You're more about having lost your mum than anything else, don't add more stress to your life. You have the most valuable thing in the world, your memories of your mum and times spent together, you'll carry these forever. But even with a Will you need to get an attorney involved to make sure it's carried out appropriately, has anyone done this? You will feel better and sleep better when the antidepressants kick in, so be patient. Hold onto your spiritual beliefs, your mum is safe and warm and in a good place. When you can't sleep try journaling your feelings and emotions, it a good form of release for us, and has helped me immensely in the past. The family needs a mediator like an attorney to help with all of this, I hope this can be done. Your sister can't just take the ring, she has to go by the Will. Try to get some rest, and stay in touch. Big hugs and I'll be thinking of you.
Hi there. It's ok because it has been like a war zone here with so many people grieving in different ways. For me, It still feels unreal . I'm exhausted but can't sleep, pushing myself to get my home in order - as you said, I think it's probably a way of cleansing as well as being able to at least have control over something and letting out the anger and adrenalin. I can only do a little at a time (CFS) but better than nothing.
the nights are the worst. I can't sleep (4.30am uk), but I'm so tired.
This is something I've had as a symptom of my condition but it's been much better for ages until now.
I have had to be quite firm with my family who think that because mum's gone, so has my debilitating condition, and they've been suggesting mad things like swimming, going to the gym etc., when I can just about get out of the door, and even then only some days.
In spite of my anti depressants i am depressed but I'll carry on with them because they will kick in in a week or so.
My sister is taking no notice of Mum's will. Everyone's screaming at me to stand up for myself but, quite honestly, I'm not bothered. None of us have got much in the first place so if she wants the one financially valuable thing (big diamond ring) let her have it. I feel peaceful that I have Mum's ring which she wore all the time. I've lost my mum. Of course some extra would come in very handy but so what? I just think to myself that if Mummy was still here nobody would have it anyway.
I just hope that all the spiritual beliefs I've held for so long are really true.I just keep thinking of my pretty little mum all cold and lonely and dirty. I know it's morbid, I can't help it.
It's the night when it's really worse, I feel so lonely when everyone else is asleep.
I'd better try again, I can hardly see. Thanks for listeningx
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It's okay for your family to see you grieving, it validates what they are feeling. It's good that everyone is expressing themselves, but maybe all of you need to sit down and talk to each other about your feelings. Your cleaning is your way of dealing with this. You're thinking "why save this stuff?" I went thru this when I lost my parents, I saw things they saved and never got the benefits of saving them, and I cleaned house. We can do odd things when grieving and so long as it makes you feel better and doesn't hurt anyone else...have at it! I think the family needs to realize that your mom would want all of you to unite as a family, and do your best to move on and be happy. All of you live lives that make her proud and happy, allowing her to live on in all of you. It's a great tribute to her! Have everyone write down what they enjoyed most about her, and discuss it. You'll cry and you'll laugh, but you'll also become closer and realize that all of you are grieving. The 6 year old is too young to understand all of this and needs some ressurance that nanny is watching over him/her and loves them very much. Now is not the time for you to question why you do what you do, if you like the pretty boxes that chocolates come in...so what? Big hugs to you.
I am really "Sorry" for Your loss, it is hard enough dealing with grief without feeling as though You have lost two people at once Your mother and Your best friend and without placing the blame on Yourself.
The fact is You helped Your mother so much when she was alive and You could not have stopped her death. You did the best You could to keep her alive and for Years You made her life even though she was ill worth living.
It might help if You see a therapist, there are counsellors specialised in dealing with loss and grief.
You are a good person
Thank you so much for your reply. The trouble is, daughters, sons in law and baby grandkids all loved her so much that everyone is down and devastated, upset and angry.I am trying not to paint smiles (can't anyway) but if you've seen the musical "grease" , the" play it cool" bit, that's what it's like in my house at the moment.Even the 6 yr old is ranting about it's not fair, I love my nanny, I want to go and get her back NOW.
Also, why do I want to clean and get rid of all the rubbish? I can't do it (C.F.S), but if I had the energy I'd be throwing away all the nonsense that i never look at and that I've had for years. I'm such a womble usually and keep empty choc boxes cos they're pretty. Can't understand myself.x