dec 5 will be 2yrs

[kimmi3333]

my mom died dec 5 at 7 58 and wed its here already now and i am still mad cause she isnt here any more.she wont know my baby girl who is almost 2 and i really miss her alotsince she has been gone my temper has gotten worse as hell...when me and my hubby fight mad i go off.and its not a pretty site.

[frito_joe]

Your So Welcome, Kimmi!   When I wrot to you, I looked at the date (12/05) and just about freaked out, because of the date.  Boy, perfect time to write to you....  I hope your days have been great, to say the least..!  For me, I know the holidays are the hardest time of the year for me....but its so nice to have people around who care, especially on here :D  !!  At least we can see that they won't have to deal with life's negatives and heartbreaks...  And they beat us up to heaven, darn it! :)  Just try to be calm and patient with yourself, Kimmi....ok?  

[suzi-q]

Hi Kimmi, I have seen you on the anxiety site.  That is my home base!  I have also lost my mom and my dad 4 months apart about 8 years ago.  I know the pain of losing a mom.  It still bothers me that my parents weren't here when I adopted my daughter from China, but I truly believe that they held her first and picked her out just for me!  Believing that gets me through many days.  A true honor to your mom is to be the best mom that you can be to your daughter, the way your mom did for you.  She will always be with you and is alive through you.  I wish you peace and happiness.

[kimmi3333]

my mom passed away with blod clots ocd and she was very ill there was a few others.my babys name is april she is 2.yesterday i just stayed home till later that night... and ty for what u said,,,,

[frito_joe]

Hi kimmi3333...
My comforts and condolences to you, hon.  My mom passed away on December 31st, 1992.......New Years Eve.  (What a DAY to go on).  It only gets easier every day....but just a lil bit.  My mom died of a Massive Coronary (Heart attack)...no warning.  What did your mom pass away from?  Make SURE taht you have pictures of your mom and always show your little girl her pictures.  And let your lil girl (whats her name..??) know that her grandma would love her very much!  :)  Tell your little girl all about your mom (her grandma :) )...she will love hearing stories all over again in later years.  
Your temper is an understanding thing.  I would definitely say it stems from your loss of your mom.  I have been in a similiar situation, but with an ex-gf.  The best thing that you can do is be patient with yourself.  I was at a grief/loss support group JUST two months after my mom passed away, so when it was my turn to introduce myself and say who I lost and WHEN...there were major GASPS all around the room.  I immediately broke down so fast.  I SO KNOW that you miss your mom, Kimmi.  It is just simply traumatic.  But we all grieve differently.  Remember THAT.  SOmetimes I try NOT to think about my mom because I have to get through a great/good day, not because I didn't WANT TO, but because you have to look out for YOURSELF, Kimmi.  Your sanity is so important...!  Make sure you and your hubby have a good talk and for not for him to take things personally, if he does.  I hope all what I said helps.  Anything else ya need, just ask...  :)  Good Luck to you, Kimmi!  

[kimmi3333]

i am doing that today.i am staying busy i have anxiety attacks i was doing good last night didnt take a pill till 1130 am .my baby will know my mom.       ty

[letmeout]

Try to think of what your mom would want for you.  She would want you to be happy - to enjoy your life and to be a good mother to her grandchild.