grieving the loss of my full term baby!

[skyler411]

Hi, I lost my baby at 38wks. ..when her heart stopped beating, just six days away from my schedule c-section!..I feel so many emotions. It's been six months now and just not seeing anything any clearer! Its like my friends and family already expect me to be moving on and when I say how sad I am all rhe time. .they say maybe u should go see a shrink...really! ..its because my grief makes them feel uncomfortable ...It's funny how ppl thought would be thier for you ...shove u aside and go onwith rthier happy little life's!..even though I have three other beautiful healthy children who I adore and r the reason I get out of bed each day..it just doesn't help my grieving. ..I cry daily for my daughter , because I just had so many hopes and dreams for her...that will never happen now!! When my kids go ro bed I start drinking and I guess its self medicating. ..but at least I don't cry myself to sleep ..just ro be numband not feel even dor a mminute  the pain i'm inn!! I guess I just want to connect with other moms who have lost a baby so I don't have to feel so alone .I want to go back to before when I was happy...:(

[atthebeach]

I am so sorry for your loss. Look at your area hospitals for grief support groups. Also calling the social service dept in your county could be of help.
Do you have a pastor or church family who you can counsel with and be supported by?
Talking about  and writing about your grief will help you.
I hope and pray you will find some comfort and peace,
Debbie

[mammo]

I'm here for you as well and thank you for your kind words.  Take care of YOU!

[skyler411]

Please feel free to message me if u just need to vent or talk any time , xxx

[skyler411]

I'm so very sorry for your losses. I couldn't imagine going threw it twice.i want you to know I think your journal idea is great and I will try it. Thanks so much for your kind words..although I never wanted to be here ..it does help to know theirs other people who understand my pain

[mammo]

Hi.....I am so sorry for your loss, having lost two of my children, I do understand.  I just lost my second son in November.  Please know that your feelings and emotions are valid, there is no greater loss than that of our child.  I don't think your family is shoving you aside, they just don't know what to say or how to say anything.  I do agree that your grief may make them uncomfortable but it does when we lose a child...it's just unimaginable to everyone.  Journal about your daughter, every feeling and emotion it does serve as a release for us. She will always shine through in you.  Let your children be the wind beneath your wings to carry you through this.  They need and love you very much.  I understand all your grief, anger and "whys", and I have found that by concentrating on who I DO have and need me that it helps me to go on.  Please, please don't drink, that is a very slippery slope and I know you don't want to go there nor do your children and your little angel in Heaven.  I feel a grief counselor could help as well.  Please know you're not alone, I felt that way too when I lost my first son and people started telling me how they lost a child...people I knew but they never mentioned it.  There are so many of us out here so please know you're not alone.  We can carry a lot of anger and don't know where to place that anger and it often gets taken out on those closest to us...no fair to them but then we just lost a child!!!  I have been crying all day for my son who I lost in November, I just miss him so much.  By journaling your feelings it's a way for us to get it all out, even the anger.  I have written letters to my sons, texts to my youngest in hopes they hear what I write.  You're right, you do have 3 beautiful children who want the happy mom back they've always known.  I know there are no words to comfort you, but I also know you don't want to miss a moment with your three children.  I had to go on antidepressants and anxiety medication many years ago or I don't know how I would have gotten this far.  Big hugs to you....