trying to deal with

i lost my daughter in 1996..i was involved in the alderhey organ scandal..i buried her 3 times..the first time and i thought the only time was just her..8 yrs later i got a call telling me they had her heart...it was unimaginable....then 3 yrs later i got a letter telling me they had slides...with bits and pieces of her.....first time ive vented over this in all these years..how would you deal with that? i dont think i have....cant comprehend it...blocked it out..but its eating away at me............at my heart and my soul.....she was my baby...