Excellent - you feel better because you are on appropriate treatment for an anxiety disorder.
Keep seeing your psychologist/psychiatrist - please do not stop the meds unless you have discussed with him or her and I am sure that all will be well in the future.
Best regards, Sean
Good Morning
I think I was more concerned by your user name than the events you describe. I do hope you do not actually hate being gay - that sounds very destructive for your self esteem and confidence etc.
The actual events seem fairly innocent to me and I would not leap to the conclusion that you have HIV.
It is of course possible to pick up other infections such as gonorrhoea, chlamydia, syphilis etc at the back of your throat and so it is worth being screened for these infections as well as HIV.
Putting it very simply, I think the probability of you being HIV positive from the event you describe is near impossible. let me know the outcome when you have the results.
best regards, sean
A related discussion,
Negative!!! was started.
I no longer hate being gay. Just hate myself for taking chances with oral sex with a stranger. Scared thats all!
I am almost 4 days from the 3 month mark. I am scared to be tested. I feel a bit better but have had symptoms for 2 and a half months now. The symptoms. 10 or so pimple like lesions on both sides of trunk of my body. Five on each side When squeezed a small amount of pus does come out of a few. I also have one on the back of my leg that is at least 1/2 " . All are slowly disappearing but after a long 2 months. I have had a pain in my chest under my breast plate for about 5 weeks. Comes and goes.Feels as if it could even be in my lung.
Muscle pain in my back and neck arms and legs have been present daily for at least 10 weeks. Still have had no fever. How long do HIV symptoms last? Please answer what your thoughts are one last time
Kind regards
I have calmed down but. Today woke up with swollen uvula in my throat?
There are white patches on it. Actually quite a large one that covers one side of it. It does not look good. it does not feel really sore.
I read somewhere it could be syphilis. plus it also says if you got syphilis the probability of
catching HIV went up 5 times. That usually viruses are passed at the same time. Is this true.
Then I also started to wonder if he sex with someone else before me and HIV could have been on his penis before I gave him oral? Or do you think it still would be a low risk ? I am sorry to bother you once again.
My Psychologist put me on Clonazepam and Ciprelex. Ive been on it for 2 days.
I feel better for some reason. The swelling in my groin and neck seems to be disappearing. I actually ate a full meal tonight. My appetite is back . I thank you and Dr..HHH for all of your strong words and advice. I am certainly thankful you were both here for me.
A Huge heartfelt Thank you. to you both . I will cc Dr. HHH
Thank You . I will hang onto that thought to help me through the days ahead.
Putting it very simply, I think the probability of you being HIV positive from the event you describe is near impossible. let me know the outcome when you have the results.
Thank You for your help. I have talked to my psychologist. He too says my fears of catching HIV from this incident are completely irrational. He said I could not have caught HIV from giving oral sex without ejaculate. He suggested I need not even go for testing . What to do??? I still worry. I have not had any flu /rash / diarrhea or anything but sore muscles and feel maybe my glands are swollen a bit so I worry. I do thank you so very much for your honesty, candor and expertise. I do look at your past response's to me almost everyday and they calm me down as I go through this waiting process. I thank you for being there for me in these times. I also do not want to abuse your time as you must be very busy. I hope everyone is right.
Kind regards.
Hello again,
That's a mix I can't sort out. I have no religious belief but I do have a spiritual belief that we are all very worthy.
I guess for you it boils down to either continuing to worry about your "indiscretions" or getting some therapy around it to try and tone down the guilt.
Either way, i'm still unconvinced HIV is a feature for you.
best wishes, Sean
Dear Doctor,
Well, I do not hate being gay I hate that I am ashamed of it, I am closeted and every-time I have any type of sex with another guy I think I am at risk of HIV. Because I am closeted I seem to put myself at risk by having what I think s safe sex. I have done this a few times throughout my life and never seem to learn . I have tested negative in the past but am so scared I am going to punished by God for not changing my ways. . I am Catholic.
I do feel that the symptoms are very different to me. I have never felt my muscles sore like this. I had another short headache yesterday as well. I am just sick over all this!
I also have pains in my chest as well.
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