Dear Dr.
Wish you a happy new year. I am traumatized soul from India (as you can see I am posting this question to you on a new years eve!)
1) Allow me to explain to you my shameful encounter which took place on 26 Dec. I was drunk and out of my wits and decided to seek a CSW, I received a protected blowjob from her, but I was too drunk to have an erection. I tried to have a protected sex with her but was unable to have erection hence withdrew from the affair, she ended up giving me a handjob for quite a while, before I quit the crime scene without ejaculating. Does that put me at any risk of getting HIV infected?
2) Immediately after this encounter, I dont know what devil had possessed me, I decided to go after another CSW who happened to be a shemale. Again as I said I was drunk and could not have an erection. She sucked my penis (with condom) , and I too was indulged in an unprotected oral sex (fellatio) for quite a while (I was the receiver). Even she could not get an erection and did not ejaculate in my mouth. But I happened to suck her unprotected penis for quite some time. I also may have licked her anus in this process. We did not engage in any anal intercourse in any way. Kindly comment on the risk involved.
As I woke up the next morning I am scared to death and totally regretting my actions. I have a very loving wife and I cannot tell you how sorry I feel for her, and my mind is filled with sheer disgust for myself.
Should I refrain from having unprotected sex with my wife until my HIV status is clear? I am in sever trauma dear doc please help,
Regards