Good choice. Also have an HIV test. Consider printing out this thread and discuss it with your therapist. I'll bet s/he will agree with all I have said.
thank you so much,
i will continue to see my therapist for my obsession and irrational fears.
You are a nice man beacause you dont want us to go deep in this anxietes !
thank you
I agree your risk is very low. Nobody can ever say for sure someone's risk for sexually acquired HIV is zero, unless they are a virgin. On an exposure-by-exposure basis, I agree with what you were informed by the Montreal clinic, i.e. each exposure seems to be zero risk.
1,2) It is true HIV is easier to treat and survival is much better.
3) When you are tested, almost certainly the result will be negative.
4) Yes, you are far too worried about HIV than you should be.
As for having the "courage" to test, it isn't the test result that gives someone the virus. You have it or you don't; and if you do, your survival depends on knowing. In addition, when someone is fearful of testing, almost always they are relieved when they finally do it, even if the result is positive; the anxiety from not knowing is worse than the bad news of a positive result. Therefore, I have absolutely no patience with not getting tested for fear of the result. Just do it. It will be negative.
Without testing, continuing a conversation here is only going to sustain your anxiety about it, and I will not permit it. Any more comments on this thread, other than your test result, will be deleted without reply.
Iam sad because i know, like most of the people on this forum, I tried to have your help.
Last week i start with a therapist to help me with my anxieties.
My second appointment is this Friday. Im working my obsessions about all kind of diseases. It take times !
When i called the clinic l’actuel in Montreal ( the best hiv Clinique in Montreal with Rejean Thomas doctor,,,,,) I spoke with a nurse ( guy) who working there for a lots of years, and saw a lot of patients . I told him the same things i told you about me sex story.
He said to me: Your 3-4 msm was protected no risk.
Msm oral without protection Passive or active: no risk
The streets girls was always protected: no risk
And, he ask me about the 3-4 girls i meet on the internet or in the bar in Montreal and he ask me if they where African .
I said no !
He told me: you are not at risk for hiv. (even my 4-5 girls one or two sex night each without protection...)
I think that nurse saw a lot and he talk to me beside the medias and beside the misinformation about the hiv. Hiv souds not so easy to transmit from girls to man in Canada. Otherwise people will be very sick in 2011 by now on the community of hetero..
1 - it is true since the meds help since 1996, hiv its slower to give compare with the 80s in Canada and the state because a lot of people are undetectable.
2 Are you agreeing with this Doctor.
3-So if you are agree with this, and i take my courage and go for the test do you think i have a big big chance it will be negative with the kind exposure i had ?
4- Do you think about my story i told you and the risk i took, im worry to much about hiv
like a kind of disproportional fear compare with the majority of people.
Welcome to the forum. I'll try to help. I read your discussion on the community forum. It is true that the way to know (the only way) whether or not you have HIV is to be tested. Based on your sexual history, almost certainly your test will be negative.
Your next to last paragraph is exactly right. Most people with HIV have had far riskier sex lives than yours. Among MSM, most HIV infections occur in men who have had unprotected anal sex with 100 or more partners; and among heterosexuals, in the spouses or other long-term partners (often for many years) of infected persons.
As for your symptoms, like seborrheic dermatitis, it really is meaningless. Yes, seb derm is more common in people with HIV/AIDS. But still, out of all people with seb derm, the vast majority don't have HIV.
But there is no point in speculating or remaining anxious about it. I cannot say for sure whether or not you are infected, only that the chance is low. As Teak and others told you, the way to know is to be tested. Please get tested, then return with a comment to tell me the result. But there is no point in additional comments or discussion until then.
Regards-- HHH, MD