Anxiety over HIV

[macxmak]

Hi I recently have post on HIV forum 2 weeks ago.I fingered the woman my finger had some abrasion and skin peeling near the nail.I did felt a vaginal fluid inside her.I also had oral sex I ejaculated inside her mouth.Then after we had protected viginal sex.I didnt know her HIV status but she is a sex worker.From the HIV forum teak told me that I donot have a risk.It was nice to hear but still Im scared.6 days after I noticed some lmph nodes at my neck it like a hard one easy to touch just beneath the skin.I got tested 8 days after the said incedent.HIV rapid test finger frick I got negative.And after 4 days after I notice my lymph nodes seems to got back on it normal size agian I cannot feel it easily when I touch it.After 11 days I seems to have a very mi headache.I dont know if its just to much internet looking for more information about HIV.Mild headache was gone after a day and half.Yesterday was my 14th day Im confusing because the skin in my neck fells a little irritated it doesnt itch.Its not red it just feels like a little abrasion on the front middle part of the neck.The affected area is very small about just 1cm.I also had a little muscle pain at my right leg near my knees after waking-up this morning thats day 15.The size of the area in pain is just about 1.5 inch in diameter.I know I sound so paranoid it because Im really scared.Im also planing to have a 2nd rapid test on my 4th week but it seems to long for me.I can still function well most of the time.I even have enough sleep since I was 1st tested unlike before I was tested.Those where very long sleepless nights.But still when it hits my mind I cant stop thinking of it.Please do give me some advice.Im dying in waiting for my 4th week test that would be on Nov 4.

[JeanClaude]

If your anxiety and/or depression is affecting you this way, you may want to speak with your doctor or a mental health professional.You would NOT have contracted HIV over this episode.
-JC-

[macxmak]

Thank for reply.My anxiety is consuming now more than ever.I never felt so down before like I am now.I cant imagine being positive.

[JeanClaude]

I will concur with the other Moderators who have addressed your concerns. You had Zero risk from fingering(regardless of any cuts, abrasions etc.) the woman. If you engaged in Protected vaginal/anal sex and your condom did NOT fail, you were NOT at risk of contracting HIV over this encounter.

[macxmak]

Its been 5 weeks since day 1 of my ordeal.This morning I got tested with high hopes but my hope turn to much more anxiety.the medtech in the clinic got my blood and put it in a test tub Ive asked why i came here for a rapid test.And replied yes they will perform a rapid test but I have to wait 2 weeks.They said that the health department had change the process of HIV testing to lessen the  anxiety of those who will be false positive so all result will be on 2 weeks time.This things are killing me.Only in the Philippines.

[macxmak]

Thanks for your reply.I have been reading almost 100 threads a day which has doctors advices which is similar to my exposure.No risk,very low risk to worry about,even doesnt need testing.It seems Im not at risk but still anxiety over comes.

[vanboy]

hi macxmak !  hang on there .... we are in the similar situation , im still waiting for my 3 months window period  . Hopefully were going to be okay ,so we can moved on with our lives . God Bless

[macxmak]

Hi thanks for your re assurance.To tell you support groups for HIV here in the Philippines are not so helpful.Ive spoken with a doctor who is a part of the HIV support group and she told me that I am at risk and she already know people having HIV thru oral sex.And even told me to wait 3 months for the test.Then Ive asked a friend of mine who to ask his brother which is a doctor in one of good hospital here in the Philippines about my encounter.Well it was nice to hear, they told me I should not worry about it.Ive asked another HIV support group with my concern told me its not that easy to get HIV.They even gave me a rapid test at 8 days maybe just to calm me.The test was a regular rapid finger ***** which was from UN-AIDS global fund.Thats the only test available here western blot is just for confirmatory.Im planning to have another test maybe after 4 or 5 week of my exposure.I have been reading alot here it makes me think better when reading replies of the doctors at hiv prevetion.I hope I will not have HIV.

[LIZZIE LOU]

if you are having health concerns...see your dr...its NOT hiv related.

[macxmak]

sorry about the typo $ is 4th.Thanks

[macxmak]

I was wrong $ weeks will be on Nov 8 not not Nov 4.After reading alot here in this web site may be I can wait till my 5th week I hope I can.It would be on Nov 15th.Every thing that Ive read tels me that Im not at risk and even doesnt need testing.But still I not that confident after reading other sites like the body.

[scaredlonelady]

Okay I know how scary it is ! I was going through this myself! Everyone told me no risk BUT your mind likes to scare you into what If's!  Stress will give you symptoms like you can't believe. All I can see is talk to people who will listen and not judge! You can message me on here I am willing to listen. Peace