Massage Palour

[grants365]

Yesterday went to massage palour and got a massage by a 40yr Asian.
Started off with just massage but after 30min she flipped me over.
Then she rubbed my penis
She finished me off via handjob and cleaned me off with a hot towel from her heated towel cube.
Am I at risk, I am married and want to have sex
with my wife.

[joggen]

It doesn't matter. If you cannot accept that you were not at risk, your next logical step is to seek professional mental help. This thread is over.

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[grants365]

Joggen/Nick?

[grants365]

So it doesnt matter if she had cuts on her hand, and rubbed the top of my penis?

[joggen]

It's an emotional issue, not an intellectual issue. I'm sure the logical part of your brain understands that you were not at risk. A therapist may be able to help you with this.

[sanyoman]

I have the same kind of feeling as you have. I also want to behave normally. As joggen said, "guilt' might be the problem. I think we are highly educated persons and tend to think those encounters dirty or immoral.

[grants365]

I dont understand though why I cannot take this advice and see it for what it is worth.  I am a smart person.  THis forum, hotlines all say no risk at all but why cannot I believe them?  I truly want to, I dont like feeling this way at all.

[joggen]

This is the third forum that you've posted this question. The answers are not going to change. You didn't put yourself at risk for HIV from your encounter and you are conflating guilt with HIV risk. My advice is to stop posting in forums and seek a professional therapist to help you get over this.