One last post

Three weeks ago i recieved unprotected oral sex from a Csw, she placed a condom on me (Trojan) and I penetrated her for less than 2 minutes. She also gave me a unprotected rimjob and then finished with more unprotected oral sex. The condom was latex so I am not concerned about the risk from that but their was a small cut inside often anus and I am worried about the risk this way. I am so stupid, a week after I went to my doctor got tested and evaluated the risk. He told me that my risk was less than one percent and that I shouldn't worry. I was tested for everything and came back negative. I am going crazy with anxiety, i can barely function, i am having the same recurring nightmare where i am hiv + it is driving me insane. everyone keeps telling me that i am fine but Now my throat is sore and I have a weired bump on my stomach. I need help, what do you think??? My doctor thinks that I have clinical anxiety. And that all of my symtoms (symptoms) have nothing to do with hiv. Thanks in advance and I am in the greater houston area if that help

[HaloForrest136]

Going through your profile, it seems you have been helping out in the HIV forums too, answering posts and questions. So, I would assume that you know the answers to your questions.
Nevertheless, oral sex, protected vaginal sex, rimjob, the risks are 0. You don't have to worry about it. :)
It is highly possible that you are having huge anxieties, and being over alert about your body. So calm down, and think it rationally. You're finee. You have nothing to worry about, if everything you said above is true, and the only thing you were involved in.  :)

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

I find that helping people with their hiv questions helps my own anxiety, I have spoke too two doctors and one std specialist. They have all given me consistent information. So I like to share the knowledge with those that need it. I wish I could honestly take my own advice, I know that the numbers are astronomically in my favor. Never the less I can't help going crazy over the symptoms that I am experiencing, one of my lyphnodes is swollen and my throat is sore, and the other day I woke up with a single bump on my stomach by one of my Strech mark. I really hope that I do not have hiv I am going crazy. But at this point I really don't know. I keep telling my self no risk and then I get a new symptom  

[Severelyanxious]

This is y u shouldn't be answering questions on HIV prevention forum.  As for your anxiety if u let it it will ruin your life.  You need to listen to your doctor and I'm sure he can help you calm down.   As for symptoms I had them all.   Lol. If I wanted to I could prob convince myself I had  symptoms of every disease there is.  in fact I went to emergency rm at 4 weeks and and family doc at 8 weeks.  Your body will do crazy **** when your stress and anxiety take over your life.   I ruined 3 months if my life worrying I had HIV,  so my advice is to ignore any symptom you think u have and talk to your doctor

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

You are a godsend,

I keep saying this to myself but I can't help but over exam every little bump that pops up on my body, even the ones that pop up normally. I use to be full of life and know I have this constant fear waking up covered in sores, with a crazy fever. Taking my mind of off this really helped though even reading back over your post gave me hope. I can't imagine living the next 9 weeks of my life like this. I really have no risk an before reading about ars and hiv symptoms I had none of these feelings. I just want to put this to rest and not think about hiv. If I make it out of this alive I know things will be different. Do you have any other advice on helping over come these feeling?
A good friend of mines sister was in a year long relationship with someone who was hiv+ and didn't know it, they where sexually active not always protected and she never contracted the disease. She told me that her risk was real and she just looked forward and hoped for the best.  

[HaloForrest136]

I would have to agree for you to stay off the forums. Not saying that you are doing a bad job, but for your anxiety. Learn to overcome it. Trust me. I have been there, done that. :)

By taking your time off the forums, it can be hard, not searching the net more to educate yourself more on the issues. But, eventually you will come to learn your anxieties and realize what you worried now is pointless.

Even you friend's sister have sex unprotectedly for so long and never catch the disease, showing how low the odds of 1 out of 1000. However, it is still not a good idea to do that, so I would tell her to start using condoms now. ;) Anyhow, it is time to move on. :)

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

They are broken up but hearing her story helped me and I know what you mean, but these forums are the only thing keeping
Me sane. I am going to take babe steps toward getting this out of my head completely. In a weird way I don't want to forget I feel like this has changed me in a crazy way. Anyway you guys have been awesome, I know we already talked about this but do you truly believe that further testing is not need? Was my situation really 0 risk even with the small anal bleeding

[Apollo1971]

Hiya chap, as per your PM.

Ok, in 30 years no one has ever got hiv from oral sex or rimming as its just not possible.

Lets put it a simple way. what she did was nothing more than kissing but on your penis and anus. As  you know, kissing is never a risk because saliva is not HIV infectiuous( sorry about spelling long story ) so you will never be at risk from this. Never in 30 years ever has anyone got HIV from oral sex as its just not possible in a zillion years, so you can rest easy chap.

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

Do you guys think I need further testing????

[Apollo1971]

never.

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

My lymph nodes in the right side of my groin are slightly swollen. And I have a tenderness on my rib cage by where my breast is. I could just be over analyzing all of this after talking teak and other on this page they also say that my risk was none for hiv

Do you think that all of this is a coincidence
If this where serious wouldn't all of my lymph nodes go crazy?
I have no fever
And none of my other lymph nodes are swollen  

[Apollo1971]

If you need to ask thidps question then you have not read and understood the posts on this thread.

[Apollo1971]

To add. How on earth you can give advise on the hiv forum when you in this current mental state and lack od knowlage is nothing more than bizzare.

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

I've moved away from that I was just trying to share the knowledge that was passed down to me from all of the doctors and even a hiv specialist that I spoke to. I've spent almost 5k on doc visits and I just want to be okay I was ready to put all of this behind me after the last time we spoke but then my lyphnodes got slightly swollen in my groin an throat is sore. I just want to be sure that these symptoms are not related to hiv. I just want to be healthy I am sorry I am done giving advice

Please just help do you think all of these symptoms are in my head?
Or maybe I have always had them

[Apollo1971]

5k wasted, because you have learnt nothing. You know the answer already. If you cannot belive the facts from the doctors, from the members here than for your own peace of mind just take a test and be done with it.

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

I wish I could but its only been 4 weeks I have to wait another 8 weeks but you know what your right I can't just live with this constant fear of dying. Life is too short and I need to push past the symptoms that I think I have and realize that I had 0 risk of exposure


Thanks for being their for me Apollo I'm gonna get it together

[Apollo1971]

Thats right buds. You know the facts deep down and once YOU decide like you have that your not at risk then you will move on. The facts always out weigh the symptoms. :-)

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

You are correct I never penetrated with out a condom or shared drugs with her so my hiv risk is none I just need to accept This thanks for putting up with me Apollo  

[Severelyanxious]

Take your own advice you left in your pm to me and stay off the Internet.  U r only fueling your anxiety.  When u stop the worry things will gO back to normal

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

I know

I've joined a different forum for classic cars I want to get my mind off of all of this and continue with my life. Thanks for following up and I hope all is well with you

[Sleeplessinseattle2012]

Just dropped by to let you know that I tested negative at 33 days after exposure, I pray to god that these result don't change at the three month mark. The only reason I went was because I got a slight sore throat, no fever and my nodes in my neck and armpits began to (probably made them worse by prodding them durning this time) anyways I waited a few days after the nodes hurt an went to get a test and it was negative!!!
Thank God! Now the nodes have gotten smaller and I am feeling better