Hi, I've come to the conclusion that i have an inflated fear of HIV, just the sight of the words bother me. I say I come to this conclusion because I was getting dental work done on base (I'm in the Air Force) and i had a mild episode of panic because i thought there may be HIV in the novacaine needle. This was on top of the two oral sex incidents I was worrying about earlier that month. Well i got negative test back yesterday. But now I'm having paranoia about a encouter I had with a transexual on Craigslist. I wad the insertive in anal sex, we kiss and had mutual masturbation, no oral either way. We used water based lube and the condom remained intact for I kept it and water tested it. I usually save them for a few weeks to remind me everything was safe incase my thoughts messed with me, but I accidentally punctured this one while trying to hide it. Some of the thoughts that I'm having is my condom slipped a little during anal but immidiately pulled it back up, I also get the thought that it could have possibly came off while inside and i didnt know it but was able to slide it back on before i ejculated. Lastly I'm worried that our precum may have touched my urethra during mutual masturbation, as she was sitting on top of me. She says she hasn't had sex since November and was tested (every 6months) then and I'm the first guy she's been with since that time but I'm having a hard time coming to grips. I admit a lot of this is guilt based, ptsd from catching my diary std 3years ago, mixed with reading too much about hiv.(especially after any sexual episode)