Also, this is what I have been going through

When everything first started I went to get tested for stds right away just to rule that out as being the problem.  I was worried I might have HIV since the symptoms were very similar.  Every test I took was negative.  I was concerned that I might have HIV and nobody seemed to think so.  Then I went to my doctor to get everything tested on me…thought I might have Lyme and it was confirmed I didn’t.  I suggested HIV and they said the test showed no reaction so I was definitely negative.  I was still concerned and did not feel well at all, so I went to a specialist a few times.  I told him about my pain in the lower left abdomen so I got a CT scan and that showed that my spleen was enlarged.  I told him how horrible I felt and looked and he said I am healthy and I look healthy, which is terrible because I look like I am dead.  They have not found anything so far, and they won't tell me what is causing the enlarged spleen.  I went to work a few days after the CT scan and my boss made comments about having spleen problems when he was younger and how he wanted to sew the doctor.  I know the doctors have talked to my company and let them know that something is wrong with me, so I know the doctors don’t want to diagnose me with anything until my company gets rid of me so they won’t have to pay for my health care.  My company has tried to do everything they can to make me feel uncomfortable.  They make comments and hints towards the way I’m feeling and I just suck it up and do my job. They moved all of the individual supervisor offices into one room with 5 supervisors and stuck me in the middle so they can make comments all day and see if I can deal with it or hopefully for them I would just quit.   I am a supervisor with a science degree and I have saved my company thousands and thousands of dollars.  I have improved their processes and I have done nothing but good work and I barely get credit for it.  People have tried to make me look bad in lots of ways, and it all makes sense now that what they are trying to do is get rid of me because they know I have some kind of condition.  It is terrible because it is like they know more about me than I know, since they are talking to the doctors and finding out, and the doctors won’t even tell me what is wrong with me…they say I’m completely healthy as far as they are concerned, but yet I feel like I’m dying and I look like I am dead.  It is so unfair how my company, the doctors, and the health insurance company are all in on this together and I feel completely helpless.  It is like there is nowhere for me to go and get help and get treated.  Everyone is in on it and no matter where I go the doctors are somehow going to team up with my company and make sure I don’t get diagnosed so then they won’t have to pay for my illness.  I hear comments all the time about how much employees cost a company especially health benifits.  I have a list of 100 comments I hear on a weekly basis, and I never heard these a year ago when I first started the job which is when I looked and felt healthy.   I need to be treated and I do enjoy my job and I do very well at my job.  I want to get a lawyer because I know they are going to keep trying to get rid of me by making me feel uncomfortable.  All I want is to get medical help and figure out what is wrong with me.  There is something seriously wrong and I can’t get any answers.  These doctors are terrible to sit there and tell me I look great, when anyone else in the world can definitely tell how horrible I look.  I have no idea where to go from here, I have gone to the doctor, gone to the specialist and gone to the ER and they all say there is nothing wrong, but yet they are all in on this together.  I wish there was a way I could go out of state and find a specialist on my own and be able to make an appointment.  I was told that I can’t see an HIV specialist unless I test positive.  Well at this point I really do think that is what I have, and even though they keep telling me I’m negative, it would be worth so much to me to just see an HIV specialist and have my viral load and CD4 count looked at, and if those look normal then I can rule out HIV…but if they are not normal I think I am on to something here. The company and doctors are definitely doing something illegal and sharing my medical information and working together to get rid of me from my job before I get diagnosed.  I can’t even believe people would do this to someone and mess with someone’s life.  I am definitely going to sew them once I figure out what is wrong with me.  Please give me some advice on how I can get treated…I don’t think I can make it 6 more months, I am getting worse and worse every month and they are just letting me die and not treating me at all.  I am ready to just give up which I know is what the company and doctors want…its like they are indirectly telling me to give up.  I don’t know what to do.  What should I do now?
  

[mbhurt]

If your HIV test came back NEG. after 3 months. Then you dont have HIV.

[RainLover71]

Don,t know whats going on with all those symptoms but you can definately rule out hiv,because you tested negative several times.Your symptoms are not classic ARS symptoms anyway.

[Ana115]

Doctors job are to look after people in need. You do not have HIV, it's all in your head. I am not making fun of you, make an appointment to see a psychologist.

[timmtimm]

Thanks for the comments, this is my first time using this sight, I see now that I should have posted this in a different area than this.  All I know is that I have something serious because I feel like I'm almost dead, they doctors have tested me for everything, I just don't know what else to do.  I have seen a specialist and my doctor and week to week I keep getting worse.  I wonder if I can go in to have a few days of other kind of tests done on me...to monitor how my breathing is and my heart and everything.  This is not just something to ignore, it is very serious and I have no answers.  If this keeps on going the way it has been there will be nothing left of me within the next year.  I have dropped 20 lbs and I eat double of what I did before because I am always hungry.  I am going to go back to my doctor and see if there is a different kind of specialist I can see.  It feels like there is something growing in my lungs like a fungus or something.  My spleen is really enlarged and it hurts so bad.  I have told them this they have proof of it on the CT scan but they can't figure out what is causing it.  If I don't get help my spleen will most likely rupture