Hi Everyone,
I am really not in a good place at the moment! About 9 1/2 weeks ago, met up with a guy from the UK. We had a few drinks and chatted for hours - he seemed really cool. Long story short, we ended up showering together. He gave me a blow job which was unprotected. I wanked him a bit but he didnt ejaculate. He then wanked himself and did ***. He then proceded to rinse his hand in the shower. After, he jerked me off.......at first I took it as all ok, but then 6 weeks later I had a huge flip out, so had an elisa test - it was negative.
I am still so freaked out and scared for my life! I dont consider myself promiscuous - I am 23 and have has sex once (was so freaked out after that, i abstained from all sexual activity for a year!), had 2 BJ's and 2 hand jobs - that's it!!! I am always so scared of doing anything remotely sexual for fear of contracting HIV!!!!!
My 12 week mark is Dec 3rd - I will test again - I just hope I can mentally & physically make it till then......I just feel so hopeless.........