BadDay1972 to Can someone look at things from MY POINT OF VIEW?

Can somebody please tell me what you would do if you were in my situation...

1 or 2 proven cases of HIV through deep kissing...who knows if there have been more considering most people "kiss" when having sex and HIV is transmitted - so technically it could have been transmitted through KISSING or the SEXUAL ACT itself.

Ok...back to my situation.

1/25/07 - make out and grind GENITAL to GENITAL with Czech Republic Female Stripper for about 5 minutes - She tells me she can't do this anymore has to stop leaves abruptly and tells me to have a good life. Next night - make out and naked grind with different girl (not a stripper) - NEVER ANY PENETRATION OR ORAL SEX - AND I MEAN NEVER - CONDOM ACTUALLY ON BUT DECIDED TO STOP!

2/14/07 - 2/19/07 - worst virus of my life that HITS me while sleeping resembles HIV ARS to the T! Every single symptom! 104 Fever, night sweats, very sore muscles and joints, swollen lymph nodes, puss filled and very very swollen tonsils, swollen lymph nodes especially in neck, vomiting, diarrhea, absolutely no appetite, lost 12 lbs in 1 week.

2/19/07 - Tonsils so swollen that I can't sleep as I start choking so I go to the ER - Tested for flu, strep and mono - ALL NEGATIVE. Doc says "maybe" PNEUMONIA as she maybe saw some "streaks" on my x-ray. Keep in my I had ZERO COUGH the entire time I was sick which is pretty much the main symptom of pneumonia. Also, absolutely NOBODY around me - my family, friends, coworkers, etc picked up my illness. Doc ASKS me if I'm 1) GAY 2) AN INJECTION DRUG USER 3) IF I'VE BEEN EXPOSED TO HIV RECENTLY...I tell her no as I didn't even think of this as an exposure. She said she wanted to make sure because it resembled HIV ARS and they really didn't know what I had but I was considered a "low risk group" - that really made me feel better - NOT!!! Given some sort of ANTIBIOTICS and fever goes down to about 99 after a few hours...Levaquin also given and taken for ONE week after leaving ER.

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[BadDay1972]

2/20/07 - Still a little feverish and not hungry - go to PCP. He orders HIV blood test which is only about almost 4 weeks post exposure - comes back NEGATIVE - Doc orders all types of blood work - only thing that came back abnormal in HIGH TRIGLYCERIDES which I researched when one has a high viral load they have High triglycerides which makes me even more nervous.

2/26/07 - I develop nonstop burning and tinging in hands and feet and random burning feeling throughout my body. Also, my legs are numb from my knees down - PCP thinks it's anxiety but it DOESN'T come and go...it's always there to the point where I have to take my shoes off.

3/2/07 - I go to neurologist who says I have "post infectious neuropathy" which he says is NOT common at all - only seen in about 1-2% of people who had a virus. Everyone here tells me PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY is only a symptom of LATE HIV but if they did some "research" they would quickly find out that it can also be a symptom of HIV seroconversion - this has me convinced I am went through ARS and will soon test positive.

3/6/07 - Doc orders another HIV BLOOD test - 40 DAYS post exposure - comes back negative

3/12/07 - Go to Planned Parenthood and do Oraquick Oral HIV 1/2 test - comes back negative

3/20/07 - Go to Infectious Disease/HIV clinic - do RAPID FINGER ***** unigold test - 54 days or about 8 weeks post exposure - test again comes back NEGATIVE for HIV.

Keep in mind I have now been visiting a SHRINK for about 4-5 weeks since DOC at ER got me worked up about HIV. Been on Prozac and anxiety has subsided A TON but still very concerned about this because of my symptoms and that NOBODY around me picked up my illness. Everyone thinks I'm crazy here or am "LYING" about my exposure - why in God's name would I do that? I want to know MY REAL chances based on my exposure and symptoms.

So...you tell me people. If you were in my shoes what would you do? I understand the odds of contracting HIV through my acts but with having IDENTICAL HIV ARS symptoms at the EXACT time they usually happen - 3 weeks post exposure wouldn't you be just "slightly" worried?

I just want to know...what would you do? How would you react? How far out would you test?

I'm 4 weeks away from taking a 3 month test but now I'm feeling that a 3 month negative won't even convince me.

What would it take to convince YOU if YOU were in my situation that YOU were indeed HIV NEGATIVE?

Thoughts please....

[Cconcerned84]

just do like the rest of us are. try to go on with life, hope that you dont have it, and continue to be safe sexually.

[BadDay1972]

Come on now man...not to comforting when you have a girlfriend of 7 years who you would NEVER want to harm! Just hope you don't have it? I hope I don't have a lot of s.h.i.t. but with my prior symptoms this seems a little more "real" if you know what I mean. It seems like I had the most intense symptoms out of everyone that's been on this forum lately yet I'm "crazy" of my so called "no risk" situation even though HIV through deep kissing has occurred...Seems a little harsh to me.

[Teak]

You never had a risk to begin with. So you can test until the cows come home. Seek the help of a mental health professional for your unwarranted worries.

[sweetnss06]

in regards to the first line of your question (the rest is irrelevant and we've all read it 925231 times...) if I, and I'm sure most of the sane people on this forum, were in your position, WE WOULD GET TESTED AND BELIEVE THE RESULTS. And we would stop flooding the board with repetetive nonsense and get on with life.

[txtony]

104 Fever, night sweats, very sore muscles and joints, swollen lymph nodes, puss filled and very very swollen tonsils, swollen lymph nodes especially in neck, vomiting, diarrhea, absolutely no appetite, lost 12 lbs in 1 week.

i have had those, when i had a stomach virus 2 yrs ago. you were never at risk.
you can catch a stomach bug through kissing. and also testing negtive, past 6wks.  dude, your freaking out over symptoms. imagine everyperson after kissing a total stranger,and hiv being that easy to contract. would be like 60 percent of americans having it.

take the facts seriously, you say there 2 documented cases hiv after kissing, maybe, but not proven.... probably were other risks involved that for any Xnumber of reasons could have easily lied...

[worriedtongue]

badday - i thought you said you were married?

[BadDay1972]

NEVER said that...just that I have a girlfriend