it's your fault. you called her back! just kidding.
I am here! I have tried my best to stay off these forums today...but I can't.
I just like bluebells...at first my name was "beyond scared" but it was retarded. So I decided to have a cute name
i started as Penitent Idiot but I forgot my password. When I was thinking of a new name suddenly some old english dubbed anime came to mind - the hero of the anime was named Duke Freed in the original japanese, but he was renamed Orion Quest in the dub. Seemed cool.
I picked my name cuz I'm a dumbass for getting myself into this, and I'm slightly tall, and slightly overweight, hence the big part. Add them together and BIGDUMMY was born.
ohmigod golden girls. What about Cocoon and Cocoon II?
Just curious, why'd you guys pick your particular nicknames?
havent you ever seen Golden Girls?
Thats not a good thought? Old people naked rolling around in the bed until an ambulance needs to be called.
If i live to be 100 I want to be in a nursing home, it will be like a college dorm...all the geezers will play bingo and sneak into eachother's rooms after lights out hehe
I am going to try to get some sleep now i wont be back online until tomorrow evening...goodnite all
My grandmother is 99. And while she's not as healthy as an ox she's still pretty danged active and healthy.
Bluebell: I don't know if I have it or not. I know that I am most likely negative. There's a difference.
Come to think of it I have seen some pretty lively old people. Maybe living to a 100 wouldn't be too bad.
well at least you know you dont have it since you were protected.
Learn from it and never leave your wife...and you will never get it.
Its not really dying from HIV that scares me...its the fact I wont be able to ever have a normal relatiionship or life again. People would find out how I got it (SEX) and judge me. I would never have kids, and wouldnt feel like I had anything to live for. I would stop caring about everything because I would know that my time on earth is numbered. That is why I woudl rather have cancer, at least I would know that I have a chance to live my life to the age of 100 if I could beat the cancer...but HIV...its a death sentence.
Those are my exact feelings almost word for word. Who wants to live to be a hundred? You would need help just getting out of the bed.
and HIV is no longer a death sentence for you guys who live in the US of A. It may be here in my third world banana republic of a country called the Philippines...
You're at 4.5 weeks? Wow that's just the same as me. Of course, I can't compare our situations... but I'll be praying for you and us all.
I know what you mean, now sense you say that a 3wk test is like my 10day test, Its a good sign but it really means nothing.
Sometimes I feel like Teak is holding back. Like he doesn't want to say some of the symptoms he felt cuz he know all of us would probably just go jump off a bridge or something.
If the FDA would approve rapid tests for sale at pharmacies I would test every few days. That way I can feel some sense of reassurance.
Yeah, thats what I told him.
The guy can be an a$$hole at times. But he seems really at peace or really sure about himself. He doesn't seem to be letting the disease get to him like it would you, me, and a lot of other people. I always thought I was pretty strong mentally, but the moment this came into my mind I've been like a big baby. ANd I'm not ashamed. I'm scared my life will never be the same.
Roids LMAO...might just work
Well, it wasnt techinally 3 weeks it was 20 days...just one day shy of 3 weeks.
At first I felt good about the 3 week, then Teak told me it means nothing and to get a 12/13 week test. Teak has scared the living daylights out of me. For some reason I believe Teak more than Dr HHH.
Yes, but then you would have to get over feeling embarrased to buy one. Actually, I keep obsessively checking my temp every so often.... if the rapid tests where available for sale, I'd probably drive myself crazy testing!