Can someone remind me what normal feels like?

[farfromperfect]

Did an Oraquick advnaced blood test today.  What an experience!  I walked in the clinic and there were atleast 20 small kids running around like wild animals coughing and sneezing, screaming and crying, and just going mad.  I had to take a number and, wouldn't you know, I got good ol number 13.  I was like great what a way to start this off.  To add to the pleasantries of the experience, I had a dream last night where the nurse was actually showing me the strip with two lines on it and trying to talk me out of a suicidal rant.  I was in a state of pure nervous hypochondriac meltdown by the time it was time for me to go back and get stuck.  The nurse was really cool though.  She tried really hard to calm me down, and it helped somewhat.  Still, she was committed to the 6 month window period which bothered me a bit.  I even tried to explain that the ultra conservative CDC uses 3 months as the official window period, but I couldn't get anywhere with her.  I showed her the Oraquick pamphlet, which I got from her, that plainly states that if a person is testing less than THREE months from exposure the test must be repeated, but still she held on to 6 months.  Im not bad mouthing her or saying she's an idiot because she is just giving information the way she was trained to give it, and no amount of me explaining how nervous that makes people could sway her.  

But in the end it was all worth it.  The strip only had one line, and I got a piece of paper that I have psychotically framed and hung on the wall that says I am HIV negative at the 6 month mark.  Funny thing is, this time I didnt get that high like I usually do.  I just felt drained because I was stressing more than I let it be known in the forums.  It was rough this time, but its over.  Im moving on.  I have no choice.  I will be around to try and calm the newbies who have had similar experiences and check on some good friends I have made on here, but I am done.  I can finally say HIV is not an issue for me.  This is what everyone on here has to look forward to.  Blue, Dummy, Jag, Clueless, and all of you will get your negative results like I did.  Now I am going to take a power nap before heading back to work and wake up to a brand new world where normalcy is a factor.  That is, if I can remember what normal feels like.  Yaaaaaaaaaaaaah Baby!!!

[farfromperfect]

Hey bro, Im out for a while.  Im gonna go live life a little.  Peace.  

[Jaguar83]

Yep, mine too, brother. I'm more worried about non STD concerns. But I think I'm cool on that front too.

Hah...they're like a fine wine.

[farfromperfect]

Correct!  My test results are proof that symptoms mean Jack.  We have had the most insane symptoms of anyone on here and negative test results despite.  

Older women make good lovers.  lol.  I hate that song.  

[Jaguar83]

I had a broken rubber x2. But noticed pretty quickly. This woman asked me about my STD testing, dumped a guy because of HSV (which she didn't get), and repeatedly told me she gets routine testing. She's white (sorry, not trying to be racist, it's all about the numbers) and in her later 30s (hah, I got a golden oldie). While I realize testing is warranted, there's no reason to freak out (regardless of symptoms!!!) because all the above signs point to a big fact zero risk of infection, practically speaking.

[farfromperfect]

Dam dude, what did you do?  Your right about tripple H.  Hes a broken record at this point.  No need to waste 15 bucks and used advice.  

Im sure you will be ok, but damit my friend don't do this to yourself anymore!  

[Jaguar83]

No, she's an ignorant idiot. Plain and simple. And shouldn't be working in that clinic. Both of the clinic's I've been told me 3 months. I suggest having a gay HIV counsellor. They are so much more informed and actually compassionate because, chances are, they've had friends with it. Not some white woman (flame away on that).

Oh...guess what? I actually had a real risk a couple of nights ago. But, as I've learned from this forum, there really ain't no reason to get worked up. If I post to HHH, I bet you he'd reccomend no testing (still will get it at 6-12 weeks). The probability is exceedingly low, practically speaking. Anyways, I'll get my 6 month (from first incident) to kill 2 birds with one stone. I'll expect negative, of course!