Doctor...Please Help Me Learn More About HIV!!!

so here's my story...My name is Jason...I'm 20 years old...on october 16th 2008 i was with my friends hanging out drinkin a bottle of el presidente liquor...i didn't eat anything all day...which i know is a big problem but nothing ever happens...so anyways i started getting drunk...so i took a 500mg pill of vicodin and smoked a few blunts of some herbs to lift things up a lil more...what i didn't expect the next day was i felt like i was in a new world...everything didn't look the same to me like it used to...i got up early and started eating some rice to make up for the day before...but it wasn't helping...i was extremely fatigued and felt tingles in my genitals...and my body kept having chills all over...i was scared i had genital herpes cause i kept looking at my genitals and started recognizing small bumps...earlier that year, in late July i had a sexual encounter with a sex worker at a strip club in mexico...i used protection and the encounter lasted about under a minute...so anyways i was super scared! i then smoked some more kush to help me forget about it...BIG MISTAKE!!!....my anxiety levels went up a few more big notches than usual...that night still being high, i lost feelings in my testicles like they were a bag of juice...and i had hot and cold flashes that whole night and couldn't sleep that night and the next night...the next day I went over to the near by STD clinic to get a check up...i told them my symptoms and what i've done in the past 3 months or so...they said the bumps look nothing like herpes...but i still haven't seen the test results yet...so i waited a week...the night before the test results was one of the worst nights in my life...i started developing photophobia(sensitivity to light)....and was getting light headed and delusional...and throughout this whole time i'm still anxious and depressed...then i told my brother and he said "it's probably the drugs you've been doing"...by the way...i haven't metioned that i have popped ecstacy about five times in a 4 month period...4 pills in late july, 2 in mid august, 1 in early september and 1 in early october...all in 2008...and i've had a history of anxiety when once depressed from losing a loved one...but i know what depression feels like and what it feels like to have anxiety...i couldn't sleep at all still...i went to the clinic and i could feel the HIV or maybe the Hepatitis physically eating away at my body...or the Herpes Simplex running through my veins...when i went inside to the doctor...they said all of my results came out negative...WHOA!!!!!...they asked me if i did any amphetamines and i told them my ecstacy story and my alcohol/marijuana problem...and i started a cigarette smoking habit too around the time i was taking the ecstacy...they said to stop for about 3 months and come back to them to tell them how i feel...i said ok...but still even though my results came out negative i was still paranoid if still i had something...as if i was traumatized...my sensitivity to light was getting worse as if traffic lights had auras around them during the day and worse at night...FREAKIN ME OUT!!!...and i would get nasty migranes (migraines) everyday and the photophobia would kick in as well...my vision would get blurry as if a eye mucus booger would block my pupils way to clear vision...and also...i would have a thin layer of liquid over my eyeball as i have glaucoma...but my eyes always feel dry...i thought i had a brain tumor or something...so i kept on drinking and smoking...no matter how much i drink...i can't seem to get a little buzz...the alcohol would not effect me one bit!...my night vision would just get worse and my photophobia would play its part...as well as my depression and anxiety...but it's weird how my heart doesn't beat fast...i just feel extremely afraid and get cloudy, tunnel vision...my chest would feel heavy all the time...in the mornings i find myself with a sore jaw after grinding my teeth the night before...it's been 3 months now since October...and my photophobia is decreasing a little...i just feel nausea and weak with a warm body but cold hands and feet...my lymph nodes are starting to swell as well...and it has me worried that i might actually have HIV...it's December and one is swelling under my adam's apple and just yesterday my left armpit was swollen all the way to the left side of my chest...my nipple felt numb and so did the rest of my left arm and hand...i think i was just touching them too much...my heart was hurting as well the night before with a cold sweat but no fever on my head...i've actually never had a fever yet...they're all just body chills...the thing that scares me the most is that most of the symptoms i have are on the list for HIV symptoms...but i do believe i am a hypochondriac and do have a depression problem...overall...i've always been very skinny...never really ate the correct amounts of vitamins in a days worth...but i poop fine and urinate clear to cloudy ****...sometimes i wonder if the ecstacy altered my mindstate...and the vicodin, alcohol and weed topped it all off...or i do have HIV and the symptoms just took a lil while longer to get to me...are the symptoms supposed to crash on me all at once??...or do i have a mental problem and whatever my mind tells me my body has begins to change the way i feel?? why is my vision blurry sometimes??i could'nt feel my testicles again last night after drinking the night before...my head feels numb...i really need help!!!!! if anyone is reading this?? PLEASE HELP MEEE!!!!!!! DOCTORS!!!!