HIV anxiety or actual infection?

[x_factor]

i feel really low and weak lately. i had protected vaginal sex with a girl a week ago and now i'm constantly worrying about it. i regret it, call me stupid. she told me she is clean and has been tested a month or so ago. but i dont really trust words. i know i shouldnt had been with her. she was 20 and after we had sex i asked her to test but she got pissed off because i do not trust her. i'm really stressed and my mood has completely changed. i dont have fever or swollen lymph nodes (but im constantly checkin my neck and my right side feels kinda stiff coz i keep touchin it and checkin it). i look normal. dont have frequent headaches. no chronic diarrhea but my stools are soft. not hard like they used to be.
idk what else to say, i'm scared to death and have these mood swings and sometimes panic attacks. i had PROTECTED sex. idk why i feel like this. i just hope my test at 3 months is negative and i go on with life and i wont sleep with girls again until i get married. can someone please tell me what if i'm at risk of smth fatal. she did not bleed. the sex was brief. just protected vaginal and we kissed a lil. anyone ever got infected when using a condom and it DID NOT BREAK? anyone got infected from PROTECTED sex?

thanks for the answers

[Teak]

Not an HIV concern.

[x_factor]

i know she doesnt play on the side, and i know what i did was a mistake but i wasnt actually in a real relationship with her until a while ago. we only had sex. she tested for me and for the peace of her mind. she is all STDs free. i've only been tested for HIV, hep B&C and chlamydia.

i've been tested 6 times since i started having sex. for 3 years now. and i've NEVER been with any girl UNPROTECTED and none of my condoms broke. i'm not in love with my girlfriend but i like her a lot. i'd never cheat in a real relationship and it was not cheatin since i did not know if we are together or not. yesterday i had a chance to be with another girl sexually and i did not do it coz im not that kind of person u think i am.

anyways thanks for the answer and for being mean at the same time

[RubyWitch]

Like the doctor says, "If it hurts when you push on it, STOP pushing on it!" Leave your neck alone! That is the ONLY reason it's sore.
Do I understand you correctly that the sexual encounter you are so worried about now was NOT with your girlfriend? That's very gentlemanly of you not to want to "hurt her in any way," apparently sleeping around behind her back wouldn't hurt her if she found out? You also say that you think you should stop having sex until you get to know a girl well, and to get tested before you "do it" again. Don't you know your girlfriend very well? She's been tested twice and you've been tested SIX times!?
Did you go to the HIV Anxiety Forum I gave you the link to? Here it is again.

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/HIV-Anxiety-Support/show/595

You need to get into some therapy for your HIV anxiety, which is out of control. Getting yourself educated about HIV/AIDS would be a good way to spend your time while you wait for your therapy appoints to begin.
Since you need to wait until February to get tested, I would suggest not having sex with your girlfriend either. Even if you always have protected sex, why would you be any safer with her than your "bit of stuff" on the side? Maybe SHE plays the field too. Do you know HER well enough to trust her? YOU obviously can't be trusted..............
Get some help
Greenlydia
      

[x_factor]

i've been goin through the same anxiety with my previous partners i had sex with. i think i need to stop having sex and get 2 know some girl well and get tested before i do it. this is my 3rd time im goin through this. i've tested negative 6 times now. i cant wait until february to check for my last exposure as well. i'll be like this until i get tested. with panic attacks and mood swings

[x_factor]

thanks for the response, i really appreciate it. i had to ask this coz since that night i've constantly been checkin my neck for lymph nodes and my neck on the right side feels kinda stiff. its not swollen but now it hurts me when i touch it coz i've been tochin it a lot. i also asked coz im havin sex wit my gf and still protected. i dont wanna hurt her in any way.she has been tested for HIV, 2 times now and she is negative. i truely believe im clean coz i've never in life had sex without a condom but i do admit i'm scared :(

[cj29]

I am going to agree with Greenlydia.  First of all you were smart to have protected sex which is great and a good move on your part.  We get many people here that are concerned with HIV.  Have you suffered from anxiety in the past?  In my experience, health anxiety can really eat at you until you decide to confront the worries.  There are multiple ways to do this, but in my opinion, seeking help through talk therapy is effective in teaching and giving you the knowledge about why you are afraid and can give you the tools to deal with it...keep us posted!

[RubyWitch]

You had PROTECTED sex. NO RISK.

Nobody has EVER gotten infected from protected sex. NOBODY. EVER.

You do not need to test, but if it will ease your mind, do it. Just know that the ONLY truly conclusive results will be 12 weeks post exposure.......which you NEVER HAD!
Please follow the link below to the MH HIV Anxiety Forum. Joggen will be able to help you.
Peace
Greenlydia

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/HIV-Anxiety-Support/show/595