HIV paranoia....actually ruining my life

[Intact73]

Hi, I have such fear of HIV its actually controlling my life and making me feel suicidal.

My own sexual activity since I last tested (negative) two years ago has been mutual masturbation and kissing.

With the kiss I had a very bad ulcer (or something) on the roof of my mouth.

The masturbation would have included genital secretions from the other men who masturbated me.

I went to a sex club where I shook hands with someone then felt a red prick on my hand which lasted two days or so....it hurt but didn't bruise and I'm scared he stuck a needle or pin in me.

Is there any chance I could have HIV? I had some bad symptoms last July - tight, cooking pain in thread, aching joints, pain in writes, hands, elbows, what felt (and still feels like a puppy underarm), burning pain in shoulders and other joints, severe neck pain and bad headaches (particularly in the back of the head near the occipital never (these headaches I still get).

I just feel so low and can't break out of this cycle of convincing myself I've somehow contracted the virus.

[Sara_MHModerator]

Hello,  As mentioned in the answers of your previous questions about this, HIV is not transmitted via kissing with or without ulcers or mutual masturbation.  MedHelp adheres to the position of the CDC as well as the input of expert physicians that HIV is only transmitted through unprotected vaginal or anal sex, the sharing of needles, or from mother to child.  Please speak to your doctor immediately about your anxiety for help and treatment.  We wish you the best of health and are now closing this thread.  
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