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Help! THINK I AND MY FAMILY ARE INFECTED WITH HIV!!!

God Forgive Me I Love My Family
PLEASE, somebody give me some advice here this is killing me!
I believe I've contacted HIV and posssibly transmitted it to family members through unknown way

I'm a straight, heterosexual, virgin. I fingered a girl and sucked on same finger while I believe I had coldsores in mouth last April in 2009. Same night had sore throat and red sore on sac. I took a Augmentin (antibiotic) and used mouthwash same night. So during this last year I have had multiple symptoms I believe to be HIV related happening to me. and I think possibly to family members

Quicklist of Symptoms: sore throat, sneezing, runny nose, red blisters, sore/hole inside *******, bad acne sores, white crap on back of tongue, growing papilla on tongue, chapped lips constantly, itchy rash and peeling on face and now eye, lungs sore to breath in, tired alot, diarrea frequently, gas and burping always (just started), back pain, memory really bad

I had sore throat and runny noses alot for only a day or so at a time but happening frequently. Had 3 red blisters by upper thigh stayed for a while and didn't heal well ( I believe to be herpes). Not the only time I had blisters either. I have a sore on the inside of my Anus been there for Months! Like a hole doesn't hurt but will not heal. I have alot more acne sores now and these ones do not heal for a long time and scar. My Tongue is Freaking Me Out, the papila on it seem to be growing in length at random spots. I have big and painful sores in mouth and back of throat more than I ever used to. Also have a white gunk growing on the back half of tongue that grows back even when I scrub it ( I believe to be Chadida or Yeast Infection). I believe the yeast infection has moved to my face. Have had rash like redness, peeling of skin and itchiness on certain areas of face the stay for over a week at times. I think its moved into my left eye which now itchs like crazy and has rash by the side of it.

Also I sneeze all the time now and cough, I find it hard to breath. I've had diarrea on and off for a few month now and gas/burping all day now. I think its a intestinal infection possibly yeast as well. Have back pain sometimes and my memory is horrible I can't remember the names to anything it seems. Thats my symptoms.  

God Forgive Me. I have a big family. I notice now that most of my siblings have chronic chapped lips like me, I notice them getting sick and think a couple of them are having diarrea in theyre own episodes. Two of my younger siblings are getting acne now, where they used to not. Also one or two seem to be sneezing like crazy just like me!!!!! Please help me. I do not know what to think here. We all pretty much use prescription acne creams. We have shared creams before! I stopped doing this for a while using my own stash of creams but I'm sure we have shared some of the same creams since I had the encounter.  I saw one page on the internet telling of two rare transmissions of hiv between family members. One being a shared razor and and second being creams used between mother and son. The creams apparently happened in the 90's in Australia.  This freaks me out.

I had swine flu in October and went to ER told doc about my worries and he said blood test showed I had a little bit low level of white cells (I think) forgot of what exactly. Said it could be caused by sickness.
I've been HIV Tested twice both NEGATICE, once before 3 months after the event and second time about 10 months after. Second test was instant blood prick on paper tab, Negative. Was done at Planned Parenthood said test is 99.6 percent accurate.

Most statistics say that Its impossible I have HIV, the test I took was accurate being negative and there has only been a few transmission cases of hiv that were very rare. Still I can't help but freak out here. I am losing my mind in worry! I don't know what to do other than get tested again. I can't imagine if I had infected my whole family. I should burn in hell for Eternity!!! I couldn't live with it I couldn't live myself.  Please give any advice or reassurrance here. Please
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EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE NEVER AT RISK...you had a test done at 10 months post what YOU believed was an exposure...THAT WAS NEGATIVE...and it proves that you do NOT have hiv...NO WAY...NOW HOW.
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I see how the post has emotional parts in it that go a bit far. Still though, I would like just some opinions from people on my situation. 1. Do some of my symptoms here seem like hiv related 2. If HIV positive vaginal fluid coming in contact with a sore on the left cheek on the inside of my mouth could transmitt the HIV Virus,  even though it would be extremely low possiblity 3. I using tubs and small containers of acne cream rubbing it on open sores on my body (possibly herpes sores) and then putting my fingers back in the container could possibly leave hiv active fluid in the cream, which was used on other family members acne possibly transmitting HIV?  
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Take it to the HIV Anxiety Support Forum.
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Ok, I see how my post is pretty ridiculous why would you say seek professional mental help. Alot of the post in here seem ridiculous to me but its just people worrying about being infected with HIV. My dad is has a Major in Psychology, I'm perfectly normal other than this crap I'm dealing with.
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You've never had an exposure. Seek professional mental help.
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