Im terrified, and stupid.

[Mme86]

I dont have much time to write this, but here goes.

2 nights ago I had protected sex with a Thai girl in Chiang Mai, mid way she pushed me away, and there was blood, she was menstruating and had thought she was finished the day before. I am now terrified because I pulled off the condom to wipe the blood off of my pubic region (there was some) and a small amount of red was inside the condom, I think some blood got inside somehow. Also, when I wiped the blood off, I just used a Tshirt and some water, and didnt have any soap. I am worried that I may have smeared the blood onto the end of my penis when I wiped my self. I have tried to contact her to ask if she has had a HIV test recently, and have sent her a message offering to pay for it. However her english is bad, and im worried she will just ignore me.

Im very scared, and very angry, and I dont know what to do. My girlfriend from australia (you can imagine how disgusting I feel with my self) is coming to chiang mai in 1 month to stay with me, I am here to study at the university for 4 months.

I have researched about the way HIV is transmitted, and have found that the Glans(head of the penis) can absorb the HIV virus, and I feel I am at risk, and I am at a complete loss as to how to act now. (how can I, should I tell my partner?)

Please help me.

[Mme86]

Nobody has anything to tell me?

The girl still hasnt called me back, but I realized that even if she gets a test that doesnt guarantee me anything.

at this stage I am calmer, but would like some opinions if anyone provide some sort of info.

ty peace


M

[Mme86]

Why is nobody answering? serious stress right now, I hope someone can come online soon. Im travelling alone in thailand, and cant even figure out who to call, is there a 24 hour hotline for hiv counselling? I need to talk to a doctor...or anyone! wefjhweojfhwefwef  

[Mme86]

even though noone is responding I have to get this out of my head.
ok so I talked to the USA national hiv helpline last night, a nice woman called mona was very good and I spoke with her for about an hour.

I was relieved to find that HIV infection isnt infact automatic.

Also, the thai girl I slept with telephoned me back, and was so insulted and furious. she was screaming at me down the phone, and I just couldnt get her to listen to what I was saying. Her english is very bad, I couldnt explain to her that I was very frightened, and that I didnt mean to insult her. I think her understanding of what HIV is was quite limited. In australia if you had casual sex with someone it would be normal to ask them if they had been tested ( well not normal, but most people wouldnt fly into a rage...) Im not exactly sure what this thai girl understands about what I was saying...anyway.


I know that before I slept with her I was HIV Negative, so she basically has nothing to worry about from me. I couldnt figure out if she was angry because she thought I had deliberately infected her, or that she was just insulted (rightly so I guess...) anyway I had a rough night last night, didnt sleep very well

This whole thing has been a massive wake up call for me and my health.
I told my Australian girlfriend that I was going to abstain from sex for 3 months for religious reasons.

At this stage Im no longer freaking out, but the issue has been complicated because she got so angry. I believe her exact words were "If I see you again I kill you", and she also threatened to go to the cops if I DIDNT go and speak with her (to relieve her fears? I dont know). I was therefore very apprehensive about seeing her even to talk with her, because I dont wanna end up killed. I have decided that the sms messages I sent her are enough for her to have the closure she needs about her fears.

I am now mostly worried that the cops will trace my thai cellphone number and get my passport details from the registration, and then proceed to ruin my realtionship to the university here, and so ruin my relationship to my university at home (as I am on exchange, on scholarship).

anyway, I might check for replies again sometime, but since nobody has replied I might just lay off.

Hope you are all well.

M.

[jstupid]

Hi. you had PROTECTED sex, even if some blood got on your penis,  though i cant understand how... the chances that she has HIV are low,  and the chances you contracted it are even lower (close to zero).  since you are stressing about it, you can take a test at 6-8 weeks to relieve your stress.

[Mme86]

Thankyou very much for your reply,

I have done the research about the test, and I can get it done at a private hospital here, no worries.

I will get the test at 7 weeks, and I am very confident that I will test negative.

with any luck I wont have to go through the agony of explaining anything to anyone.

well, its been a roller coaster the last 2 days, and it has been good to type this stuff up, regardless of feedback.

peace

M

[ayshalak22]

Hi Mme86.
Don worry, the odds that you contacted hiv are very slim. I am sailing in the same boat with you. I had unprotected sex and when I asked him if I should be worried he got very insulted, because he had explained so many times that he is clean. Anyway I a  took 7.5 weeks test and it came out NEGATIVE. I am taking 12 weeks next week. Take heart and take a test in 6- 8 weeks and you will be fine....Good luck.

[wannebemommy]

hi

i can tell that u are stressing out of ur mind and i dont think u have hiv.. im proud of u for wearing a condom, that little rubber just might have saved ur life.
Dont believe everything u read that will drive u insane believe me!!
Plz do take the test  just to make sure and sort urself out before ur girlfriend comes to u.
best of luck!!!