Im very depressed

At this point iam very depressed and im starting to give up hope,i kno i should stay positve but the things that iam going threw is breakin me down day by day,i kno i should stay confident at my 6 1/2 months hiv test 4 days from 7 months as i might add,but it hard to stay confident while i have all thses stymptoms,i have swollwn lymph nodes all around my abdomen and on my neck and thys my neck sore right now,but there not swollen to the point where u can see em excpet for the one thats by my ear a couple of weeks that 1 had got  alil swollen for 3 days then it went back down to its normal size,but i can feel them around my abdomen sometimes it gets a lil sore,i heard that even if ur in the asymptomic stage your lymph nodes will stll show that freaks me out,cuz at his point im at 9 1/2 months from my last exposer,and im so scared to get tested again.


And it ***** cause when i first found out that i could be at risk  o getting hiv i had made sure i waited well beyond the window period to get accurate results,and that was the worst time of my life so for me to still be havin symptoms is killin me,and i still have other symptoms like white tongue,whitish lines on the side of my tongue and inside my cheak,and my throat is still red by my tonsils,and sometimes i have night sweats but not to the point where my sheets are soaked,i kno what you guys are gonna say (any excessive message will be banned) but i dont have anybody else to talk to,my family and friends dont take me serious cause im so paranoid lol jus thought i would share that with you guys and let you know even though i tested way beyond the window period i still have anxiety like the rest of you guys .

[Teak]

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Please-help-im-scared-and-stressed-out/show/940071?personal_page_id=490110&post_id=post_4418362

Move on.

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[fresh87]

But teak i have swollen lymph nodes everywhere,around my abdomen,legs,thighs,arm,chest,etc and i have rashes everywhere that itch,and i stated gettin the rashes like a week and a half ago,

[Teak]

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[fresh87]

Sorry if i keep postin but its jus hard to belive my 6 1/2 month test,when i have all these symptoms,they say if you have swollen lymph nodes all over your body thats a clear sign of hiv and that freaks me out

[LIZZIE LOU]

take it to the anxiety forum...it's not a hiv concern.