In the Dark

Ok. I called Public Health.

Turns out they DIDNT do an RNA test becaus they felt my risk was "too low"

They did a regular antibody test.

Grrr.

While I feel good they felt I am "low risk" I am confused because I heard her say RNA when she took my blood.

I am going to try to get another rapid test today. Dr HHH says if someone has felt like absolute **** like I have for over a week they will def test positive. I am calling an STD clinic in my suburb right now to see if I can go in today.

I just want to make sure I am ok.

Part of me wants to go to the ER. I dont know why. I just feel like I need someone to run every test on me right now.

[Jaguar83]

Another whacked out paranoid neurotic new thread. Fantastic!

[cluelessintexas]

Good luck!  I bet everything will turn out just fine and you will be negative. =)  I will keep ya in my prayers!

[bluebell81]

If you really truly are having ARS due to HIV, you will test positive most likely during the week you are feeling ill.

Even though the dr told me its "mono" you can actually test positive for mono your whole life if you had it as a kid. How do the dr's know its acute mono and not just antibodies from a past infection?

I truly think I am having ARS.

[Cjplus]

Where in the world did Dr. HH say that if you feel like **** for a week that you're definitely going to test positive. That's rediculous and Dr. HH would certainly never say that.

[cluelessintexas]

Are you getting a rapid test soon?

[cluelessintexas]

I know what you mean about being stressed to the point where you have a nervous-breakdown.  
As hard as it may be, try and relax and EAT!  All the worry and stress strips your body of vitamins that it needs.  
I am worried too.  BUT I am taking many different vitamins to help my body cause I know stress can take it's toll.

I hope everythin turns out ok.  I really think it will.  If it makes you feel any better.. I am a minority and my 6 week test was negative.. AND the guy that did this to me is African American.
I am still scared and paranoid.. but if I have it.. nothing can be done now..

BUT worrying and stressing will not help the situation.  I know, easier said than done.. but we gotta get a grip on things.  

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  =))

[bluebell81]

They dont do rapid tests. I am so upset.

I know I sound like a crazy person but I am going out of my mind right now. I am having a night sweat right now and its daytime. I havent eaten in days due to no appetite and my sore throat. I can barely turn my neck. I just feel like I am dying.

I am 2 second away from calling 911. (haha i wont do that but that is how I feel right now)

[bluebell81]

Dont be scared anymore, you had your 6 week negative, it wont change. You are NEGATIVE :)

I wouldnt be acting crazy like this if it wasnt for my horrible symtoms (symptoms) and mono. If I was feeling normal like I was last week, I would feel anxiety but not this terrible panic I have now. Part of my head keeps telling me I have mono and ARS at the same time.

I know I need to eat and have vitamins but my throat is literally swollen shut and so painful I cant get solid food down much less pills. Its less sore today but a few days ago it was so sore I couldnt even drink fluids.

Thank you for thinking about me and wishing me luck, I sure need it

[bluebell81]

Yes, it was negative, but i am only 3 weeks past last exposure suffering from severe symptoms that the dr said is just mono.

[peekawho]

So...they did the appropriate, regular antibody test and it was negative again, right?

[bluebell81]

3 weeks past the incident

[bluebell81]

yes, thats me

[peekawho]

And how many weeks past your incident?

[peekawho]

I forget--are you the one whose bf took off the condom somehow and you didn't know?

[bluebell81]

I was so happy when I got the 3 week negative. But then I got the mono symptoms and it all went downhill from there.

The reason I dont believe the doctors who say I have mono is because they do a mono spot test that detects antibodies to mono. I have the antibodies. I probably had mono as a child where you dont get symptoms and have had antibodies my entire life.

If I got a 6 week negative I would let this all go. I wish it was 6 weeks already. I am going next week to get a rapid test.

[peekawho]

Well then, a 3 week result is encouraging.  It is not conclusive.  That said, most people would be overjoyed with a negative 6-8 week negative result and would let it rest, but you clearly are not one of those people

3 months is virtually 100% conclusive.  Why take another test right now that you won't believe, either?  

I think you'll just have to wait it out.  There is nothing else to do.  

[peekawho]

This is my absolute last comment to you, b/c you are driving me nuts.

WHY WILL YOU GO GET ANOTHER TEST THAT YOU WON'T BELIEVE, EITHER?  WHY???  WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT??

[bluebell81]

Sorry, I meant that I want to get a 4 week only because dr hhh says most people that truly do have ARS will test positive by 4 weeks.

[bluebell81]

you are probably right. It helps to know you are negative at that time though.

Goodnite we'll see you tomorrow :)

[peekawho]

BUT YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!  Then you'll be right back, saying "Did I test too early"?

*slams head repeatedly on computer desk, over and over*

Ok, now I'm really going off to bed.  See ya'll late tomorrow.  

[bigdummy]

I think thats the turn on, you seem so scared, like you really need a hug. If I wasn't scared to fly, I would come to Seattle and stand in the middle of the streets and yell "BLUEEEEEBELL, where are you" Then we would meet and hug and it would be like "Sleepless in Seattle" All I have are my fantasies now.

[bluebell81]

LOL.

I am major scared. I sure I have HIV. I cant stop researching it.

[bigdummy]

I really don't think you have it. This guy is in his 30s, I think he would have known by now if he had anything. Diarreah (diarrhea) is caused by a lot of things including Mono, and different medication.
I read where Seattle is like one of the places where many HIV+ people live, they don't have a rapid test center their?

[bluebell81]

There is a huge gay community here which is why seattle has a lot of hiv, oh and also there is a lot of drug users.

The reason I cant go the public health right now to get another rapid test is that they have banned me until my 3 month mark. Probably because I have wasted taxpayer dollars getting 3 tests already when it is still too early in the window period. :(

You would think this guy would have known if he had anything. But again you can live for a decade with absolutely no symptoms. He also confessed to me that he suffers from severe depressoin and does not care what happens. So I am sure even if he got sick he wouldnt go to the dctor to find out whats wrong. He also has a really bad dry cough. Does daily weed smoking cause dry cough? I am looking back trying to figure out if he shows symptoms of HIV.

[bigdummy]

Weed doesnt cause constant caugh

[bluebell81]

So why else would he be coughing all the time?

He is always coughing, loud thunderous dry coughs.

I know smokers cough a lot.

Weed smoking, done daily for his whole life, several times daily, does not coughing?

Is it a sign he has HIV?

[bigdummy]

Maybe it could cause caughing, but Snoop Dogg never caughs. Maybe he's cig smoker too.

[bigdummy]

I'm just going to throw this out there. If we both test pos., we can team up and be like Bonny and Clyde and seek vengeance on those that have wronged us. (Its dangling out there, take some time to think about it)

[bigdummy]

I'm telling you there is something up with me. I hate when people say I have no risk, I think I did. I could have had an opening somewhere that the virus could have gotten into. I'm nervous too. My eyes are getting worse and my diarreah (diarrhea) is back. Not to mention how nauseous I got a little more than 2wks after having sex with this person. She gave me something, but I'd rather it be anything than HIV. I hope a month from now my life is back to normal.

All of you symptoms are Mono, your just scared like I was after my herpes scare. You think becuz he had mono he could have had other things. You'll be fine.

[bluebell81]

sounds great and all, but you are definatley negative.

I am the one who had true risk, repeated expsoures by a doofus who tricked me and took off the condom so he could get his own pleasure and put my health and life at risk.

[bigdummy]

And the extreme dry mouth I had as well

[bluebell81]

The thing is, he swears up and down he doesnt have mono and has never been with anyone thats had it. That leads me to think, well if he doesnt have mono then it must be ARS and I had a false positive mono test.

[bluebell81]

If I live thru this, I am becoming a born again virgin and will remain celibate until marriage.

I have also decided if I live thru this I am going back to school to get into nursing. I have realized health scares are so horrible and I want to be able to help others in fear of disease.

[bigdummy]

Don't you have a finance degree? There is more money in using that. Go get a masters degree if you want another degree. You said he doesn't go to the DR, and doesn't care to get tested, he doesn't know what he has. I can see why your worried, he seems like an a$$hole, his attitude I'm sure is not helping you. Posting every symptom you have isn't going to help, you see Teak has stopped answering you for the most part. You just have to try to relax and get you test results. You can't change the past, but you can deal with the present and work on your future.

[bigdummy]

Don't get me started on Herpes. I'm about to hit the Quiznos, I'm starving.

[bluebell81]

This HIV scare has been a life altering change. I want to help others in fear of their health.

I hate finance. I am not happy in it and its a greedy profession and you cant trust anybody, not even your own coworkers.

The reason I post every symptom is because I need constant evalaution due to my panic right now.

I am sad Teak wnt answer me, he is annoyed I am sure, but fear can drive people do crazy things like what i am doing now.

Now I am worried he gave me herpes. How long would does it take to get a herpe? The lab results are not in about my herpes test but something tells me they forgot to test for it after I told them to. All my other labs are in but herpes and its been a week.

[bluebell81]

I'm jealous. I am hungry for the first time in days but I cant even eat a banana right now due to sore throat pain.

I would do anything for some greasy fast food and a milkshake.

[collegegirrl]

don't fret, i feel the same way with all the symptoms i've been having. sore throat, diarrhea, night sweats, fatigue, and loss of appetite. i'm going to get my 3 month test as soon as i can, but until then theres nothing we can do! if any of us test postive we have to accept it because even though it may have just been a stuipid and pointless sexual encounter, there is no way we can go back in time. and i agree with bigdummy, i am ready to seek revenge on this ********* who made me believe he had any feelings for me whatsoever. i cheated on my b/f with this guy :/ and of course the karma is coming back to me. everything happens for a reason. let's just pray we all come back negative! (which we will) <3