Losing my mind... Help Needed....

Helppppp.. I have asked the Dr. and he said no realistic risk BUT I am still worried. I am seeing someone to discuss my anxiety as it is having a major impact on my life. Seeking anyones feedback. I am 17 and feel truly alone. JoeC, Dobber, Mike... anyone.. please help...

I keep asking myself if there were traces of blood/vaginal fluid on my fingers and then I directly touched my penis about 30 seconds later how is this different from unprotected sex? There is a remote possibility of blood traces as a pin hole stain was on my pants where my hands likely touched. May be my paronia.

Exact Scenerio

1. A finger insertion into her vagina (seriously for a second). I simply put my finger in her vagina for a second and then removed it but Vaginal fluid was felt on my finger after removal. Changes of HIV infection by this. No known scrathes or cuts.

2. Massaged clitoris, top of vagina with right hand fingers, no insertion but worried about vaginal fluid traces or possibly blood traces which may have previously occured from her grinding on me with me with my clothes on and hers were off and then me directly touching my penis 30 seconds later with these hands which may have had fluid or blood traces on it. After massaging the clitoris with my left hand for say 30 seconds to a minute, I then put my finger inside her. Vaginal fluid felt on this finger and then lets say 30 seconds later I touched/rubbed my penis for about 30 seconds with my left hand which I previously massaged her clitoris with (worried about vaginal fluid and possible blood traces on these fingers) I breifly touched my penis with my right hand that previously had vaginal fluid from fingering. Since it was a lap dance with heavy grinding (my clothes on) her vagina could have been irriated and could have had blood traces or vaginal fluid. What are the chances that fluid possible blood traces on my fingers could have entered through my penis when I touched it due to possible abrasions or redening during lap dance when I touched it. No cuts on penis but may have been tender.

[mike_no]

Nicky,

It was told to you before that you did not have any risk even the doc told you the same, there's no point in wasting time thinking about HIV, cuz you can't get HIV through the mentioned incidence

Your fears are all due to anxiety, see a shrink, HIV is not your problem !

Mike

[anonymous_user]

i have been all around the web searching HIV.

understand that the virus becomes inactive once in contact with air.
hence, if you had rubbed your penis, or tried inserting your finger inside the urethra or did any damn thing, you cant get affected this way..

understand please :)

[monkeyflower]

The fact that you're getting counseling is awesome. However, you should probably talk to your parents and your family doctor about starting meds. The combination of meds and therapy is much, MUCH more effective than either one alone...