Losing my mind thinking i got HIV!

[momonie]

Hello,

I was just wondering if you could help me cool my nerves. I recently (4 weeks ago) had unprotected sex with my boyfriend of 1 yr. I know it was wrong, got caught up in the moment, etc. Anyways he lives in the caribbean and i live in the states. When i got back home i started hearing stories from people who know him there saying that before i knew him how he has aids and he was admitted into a mad house because he couldnt deal with it. I asked him about the stories, he refuses to talk about them. I asked him if there is any chance he could have aids he said no. I asked if he has ever taken a test, he said never. I asked him if i am the only girl he has ever had sex with w/o a condom he said No, that there was a girl before me and he never wore condoms while with her. They have a 2yr old together and im still hearing that he has been sneaking around with her still, sex without condoms. When she had the child, wouldnt the doctors have told her she had hiv or anything like that? Ok, im losing my mind! Neither one of them has ever taken a test! I remember before going to be with him last month i went to the doc and took a test, checked for std's the works and i proved to be ok. I remember asking him to do a test as well, he said it would cost $90 and he didnt have that kind of money and that he was healthy. Anywho now that im back home i have been reading up on the signs of hiv and i swear to god i have all of them! I don't know if i'm making myself crazy or what but my thoart is abit sore, a bit of a burning feeling, same with my tongue. I feel tired, i urinate often, i have a shakyness in my hands, lost of appetiate, i cant sleep, i have 2 small cuts inside my mouth, swollen lymp, when i move my neck left or right it hurts abit, i even have some serious stomach pains, so bad i had to go to the emergency walk in, its like a tight squeezing feeling, a bit crampish...the list goes on. I did a std test recently and it came back with nothing, i was relieved but they said to wait 3 months before doing a hiv test...i can't wait that long!!! Anyways my family doctor did a hiv test on me anyways but im afraid the test will show im negative if i am positive. I just need some piece of mind. I know i shouldnt have done it w/o a condom but i read somewhere that if i have a cut in the vagina or anywhere near there i can get the virus that way. I dont have any cuts down there! I asked him if he released inside of me he said yes, but im on the pills so i wasnt worried about pregnancy. Now im worried that his semen may be carrying hiv and it has been passed on to me. Whats scares me the most is that to this day i ask him to please go and get tested, he refuses and says its a waste of time he is healthy. I keep telling him he can feel healthy and has no signs but infact the virus could be inside. PLEASE HELP! I don't know what to do. I cant focus, i even took time off work because i can't focus on the job, this is all i think about and i just need some facts on what we did and based on our history if we both will be ok. I am still waiting on my test results for HIV and i know if its negative i will have to do a second one and im not looking forward to that. Any advice on what i can do? are these signs real and mean something or am i making myself go crazy? based on his history is there a chance he could have aids and since he never took a test doesnt know his status? Any info or advise you can give me would really help because im not to clear on how u can get hiv, i never thought about it and now here i am obsessed thinking i have it night and day!!!

[Teak]

Your problems have nothing to do with HIV.

[Could_this_be]

I trip over the fact that I'm experiencing lipoatrophy. and this symptom is the worst hiv symptom that you can ever have. My legs that I once had is slowly gone. When I wash my face, I can feel the fullness being gone. My arms don't feels the same way... My limbs fat is gone. Still 35 pounds over weight. When I first noticed these symptoms, I didn't know what it was. I went to get a physical and the doctor called me and told me that I have a low white blood cell count and she wanted me to come in for hiv testing. I looked up hiv online, and I ran into lipoatrophy. Fat-loss in the face, buttocks, legs and hands. specially the limbs, and the flu like symptoms, the fever, the nightsweats or any of these symptoms can't top this. There is no other medical condition online that does has the same kind of fat loss. I was going crazy, but thanks to people here who place me at no risk. Which relaxes me... but the lipoatrophy hits me everyday, and I'm so scared of testing because of this reason. Worst symptom of all hiv symptom. No other medical condition causes this problems, and so hard to deal with.

[momonie]

2 weeks

[hypocsl]

When are you expecting the results back?

[LIZZIE LOU]

STOP with the "internet diagnosing".   you are not a trained professional and cannot diagnose yourself over something you read on the internet.

[joggen]

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