My fault

I am a 40 year old married male with 2 kids. I test hiv negative at 8 weeks (54) days.  My exposure was receiving unprotected oral sex from a woman.  I was feeling fine mentally and physically but at 7 weeks I developed a sore throat that went away in one day and now have a cold.  Needless to say I am extemely depressed and anxious about this situation.  I am crying everyday and am so scared.  I don't know what to do.  I cannot function. There are so many gray areas with hiv, 6 weeks window period,8 weeks, 12 weeks, unprotected oral no risk, low risk, some risk.  I am so sad. I just want to be finished with this, it is consuming all my energy.  I just want my life back.

[mnbamb]

Your actions did not pose a risk to you. You should understand that the guilt involved plus the stress and anxiety are mixing with your emotional feeling. Your actions didn't pose a risk. Your negative result will continue to remain. Its best that you don't put yourself in a situation again. Best wishes.

[LIZZIE LOU]

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you have been advised here and on the expert forum.  take the advice given and move on.

[dummyone]

Thanks for your response.  I guess i just wanted reassurance.  I am so scared...I don't want to infect my wife.

[LIZZIE LOU]

i appreciate your concern...but you cant infect your wife with something that you dont have :)

[depressingman]

You are definitely okay.