My turn to face the music...

Dear all,

It's been crazy for the past 1 month. Lost of focus, depressed, anxiety, you name it I've gone through it. I've been thinking so much about losing my life, and I am not even sure if I will. I guess it's not something that is easy to handle and I've got no one to talk to since I am from a South East Asian country and my encounter was a broken condom with a CSW in one of the countries around this region. Should have followed my gut feel that day because I didn't want to bring her back to the hotel. I was ontop insertive vaginal and it felt tight after a few seconds and when i pulled it out i saw the broken condom. I stopped doing whatever and washed my genitals right away. I asked her and she said she's negative.

Today, 4 weeks later i finally brought myself to the lab and did a test. Won't receive the results until two days later so I hope that everyone can pray for my safety. I promise i will never do somthing so stupid again. I have read this forum and countless others so many times within this month and although the statistics do help in keeping me sane these past few weeks but nonetheless I am all broken now with anxiety and wondering what will happen if the worse comes up.

Although it's classified as a one time unprotected encounter, I hope I am not alone in praying and the people here has been tremendously helpful in supporting each other during these turbulent times.

Just hope that God will have his eyes on me this one time.

Thanks everybody.

[mike_no]

Alright, now relax and stop thinking about it, think logically and rationally.

Through my personal experience, I can tell you that condom breakage exposure is no joke. It's a major psychological setback more than an HIV risk, simply thinking about HIV.

Yes, you did have a minute risk and need to test, you did exactly what should have been done in a condom breakage scenario. You realized that your condom broke and you pulled it out.

For one to contract HIV, he has to be exposed to substantial amount of infected fluid and female to male transmission of the virus is relatively difficult.

It's very unlikely that your partner was infected and even if she was, it's highly unlikely that the infected semen of your partner had entered you through the urethra.

You were inside her unprotected for a very small time, which wouldn't be adequate enough to transmit the virus to you.

Symptoms means nothing, I can tell you that I have seen lot of people here on the board complaining about every possible symptoms the book reads for however running around with their conclusive 3 months negative result around with all the woo hoos

There's absolutely no need to go panicky, follow the right procedure, test at the 6th week from the date of your exposure and back it up with a final test at the 3rd month.  
6 weeks negative changing ahead is highly unlikely and something that's unheard to me.

I'm very confident that your result would be negative cuz I & several others fared negative too during their scare which was very similar to yours :)

Good Luck

Mike

[asiv]

Hi mike, i had protected vaginal and received unprotected oral from a girl here in the uk.Have had lots of symptoms including a lingering sore throat for 5 weeks now.Am going for my 8 week test today,wish me luck.

[helpmeDR]

I wish you all goodluck. My mind is screaming right now. I am not sure what to think. It's even harder when I am at work and nobody knows what I am going through and I am sitting here pretending that everything is alright when it's not. I sure hope that you are right Mike, because essentially my life depends on that. I initially didn't want to test but I can't see myself living my life wondering what my status is. I just hope that I am as lucky and most of the people here to dodge this bullet.

I can agree more with you for this being a great psychological setback. I just hope it stays as just psychological and hope that it clears and I want my life back. It's been different and I am hoping for the best.

[mike_no]

Please don't hijack helpme's thread, please create a new thread for your self so as to enable other users to contribute :)

You don't have a risk to begin with, you don't require testing.
Protected sex is safe sex and Oral sex is no risk.

ASIV, please move on.

[mike_no]

You should be fine, my friend.

[helpmeDR]

Mike,

You certainly sound like a very understanding person. To be able to reply so soon is really something that i truly appreciate in this time of fate.

Thank you.

[asiv]

Apologies,did not mean to hijack your thread.

[helpmeDR]

Gonna get my results tomorrow. Please help me pray as well for a negative. I really need it. With all these, I am not sure how I would be able to deal with the worse but I am praying really hard for the best.

[Ausguy]

Good luck!

[islandfever]

I am sure you'll be fine. In simple words, the window period sucks.