No risk, but wtf?

ok here it goes.
I've been reading these forums for months now and am thankful for the information. i'm sorry for posting this question that seems to have been answered many times, but maybe there's something different about my story.
A random female (age 19-21) and i fool around kissing breast sucking and vagina fingering. At one point in my drunken haze i have some clarity. "I'm being unfaithful this has to stop". i leave go to the washroom. I realize i handled myself with the same hand that i had been fingering her with and washed with soap and water.
The next day i realized i had a scrape below my nail on my middle finger. (later remembering scraping it on my guitar a few hours prior to the encounter.)
My guilt and paranoia led me to these boards the next day. Many threads similar to my story all with the answer "No risk from hand to genital, scrape or no scrape". This eases my mind. But in the next couple of days i start getting this blurry vision and my genitals just feel not right not swollen but the same kind of feeling.
After about two weeks my inner thighs are just aching and i have to pee all the time. Like really annoying every half hour, sometimes every ten minutes. Also i start to notice this like pins and needles feeling in the head of my penis. On day 22 (after "exposure") I find a couple of red splotches on the head under the forskin so i go in that day and get tested. a Herpes culture test and Gon and Chly test. Among other test for blood suger, liver, prostate, white blood cell, etc.
Everything comes back negative.
OK It must have been stress and guilt. as i literally thought about it every second of every day. But the symptoms don't go away?!? Although the red spots went away after a day. So i go and test for Syphilis and this third world std (can't remember the name) and they check my blood for herpes. All neg except for the herpes witch is inconclusive but my doctor says she sees no indication of an sti and not to worry.
All this time trying to reassure myself reading and rereading posts on this forum.
Then the sore thighs and pins and needles in my penis go away about 4 or 5 months later. But they are replaced by stiff elbows which eventually moves to my knees and a sore throat. There was also a strange pain in the joint of"THE" finger early on which would come and go. Now i'm telling myself ok this is because you've been reading HIV symptoms and your guilt is doing this to you. But really it just doesn't go away. Also through the whole thing i've had ridiculous gas and the frequent urination never really went away. At the very best i pee every 2 hours.
I'm at 10 months since the incident and all of a sudden: thrush. And i had recently been net surfing and thinking, "well at least i don't have thrush". I don't see any white but my mouth feels cottony and kind of stings somtimes (throat too) When i chew gum all these little white hard things come to the front of my mouth. I thought maybe cause i smoke or my teeth are horrible my mouth is just like this, but then i did the candida glass test and got the stringy gob things.
It all just seems too real to be psychosematic. I have saved you the details about the horrid depression guilt, but i don't want to come off cold so let me just say this: I have never felt like a bigger piece of garbage in my entire life and there isn't a second that goes by that i don't regret what i have done.
But seriously am i the one in a million who contracted it through my scrapped finger? If not wtf is wrong with me?

[Teak]

See a doctor if you have a concern. You were never at risk of contracting HIV.

[LIZZIE LOU]

no

no one here can diagnose you.  if you are having health concerns...see a doctor and dont self diagnose.  it's NOt hiv related.

[themess]

Thanks guys,

It makes a difference getting a direct answer rather than reading someone elses.

I don't want to be one of those guys but just a thrush question.
The glass test: does it always mean thrush or can other factors cause the same effect with saliva? And the hard little white chunks, can't find any info on them. is this thrush related?

[themess]

Any insight would be greatly appreciated. If there were a thrush forum i'd post it there. i appreciate how tiresome it must become to constantly reassure and ease the minds of us paranoids. i just can't find the info anywhere.

[LIZZIE LOU]

you have been advised that you do not have a hiv concern.

see your doctor...