I am getting more and worried, I started getting itchy irritated/pins and needles feelings in my lower back and legs, no apparent rash possibly feels like hives but cant see anything like bumps. Can someone please help...
This is occupying my mind 24 hours a day, I seriously even dream of this worry. Teak, Mike, anyone please HELPPPPP...
fluid traces or possibly blood traces which may have previously occured from her grinding on me with me with my clothes on and hers were off and then me directly touching my penis
for say 30 seconds to a minute, I then put my finger inside her for only a second. Vaginal fluid felt on this finger and then lets say 30 seconds later I touched/rubbed my penis for about 30 seconds with my left hand which I previously massaged her clitoris with (worried about vaginal fluid and possible blood traces on these fingers) I also breifly touched my penis with my right hand that previously had vaginal fluid from fingering. Since it was a lap dance with heavy grinding (my clothes on) her vagina could have been irriated and could have had blood traces or vaginal fluid. What are the chances that fluid possible blood traces on my fingers could have entered through my penis when I touched it due to possible abrasions or redening during lap dance when I touched it. I am uncircumsized so I am worrying maybe fluid/blood traces could have went under a fold when I lost my errection.
This was a no risk situation. I repeat NO risk. If I were you, I would go see a doctor if your symptoms persist. It might be something else. However, it is NOT HIV.
In fact, when you see your doctor, ask him about the possibility that you contracted HIV. He will tell you the same thing. Zero.
Nicky, I'm sorry this is still upsetting you. I can assure you that you didn't have a risk. You need to continue working with your therapist to find out why you're so terrified over a non-risk event.
But put HIV out of your mind. You were never at risk. It's as simple as that:)