Please help all educated

I have not been diagnosed with hiv but I wanted to post here because someone living with hiv can let me know if they have had similar problems.  About 1 1/2 years ago I slept with a girl who was very persistant to have sex without a condom on and I did not know her.  At the time she was a russian girl who has only been in the usa for 2 months, however, she had her permanant residency card.  To get to the point after sleeping with her 2 months later I got very sick with also all signs of hiv.  One was otis media and fatigue, that was the first symptoms.  Because of that the doc said he wanted to test me for hiv.  When ache said that my whole body got numb because I was thinking that the girl had messed my life up.  After that I got reallllly sick.  Lost 10 pounds, otis media, night sweats, coughing up clear mucous, shortness of breath, tingling, eyes burn, under my armpits, groin, and neck would get sore, but docs said that the tendons under my armpits were swollen and I was not lymph nodes.  I would get feverish, rashes on my hands, doc said poor blood circulation, bones crack alot more that usual, burning in joints, a weird sound coming from the back of my neck, white spots in the back of my throat, docs thought mono, that was negative and so was strep.  I have had many more sicknesses.  I have always been a healthy person and I have never had my ear close up like it did.  That is the reason I went to the doctor.  As far as my tests, they all came back negative for hiv.. Western blot at 2 months, viral load at 3 months, elisa at 6 months, elisa at 9 months.  The girl that I started dating after the fling, she was negative at 4 months, and my baby which was born 4th of july was negative.  Everything keeps saying negative but I dont know what the problem is.  After a while I have truly excepted the fact that I was negative and I didnt care anymore.  But every other week, my ears get wet, I have mucous in my stool, I get shortness of breath, sometimes when I blow my nose it has blood in it, my girlfriend plays with her ears sometimes she but does not tell me when anything weird happens because she was the one that kept telling me that I was crazy and was making everything up.  However, we go through spells of stomach cramps, loose stool, and I still get sore lymph nodes in groin and neck.  And today my girlfriend told me the other day she was doing something in the mirror and blood started coming out of her nose and sometimes the baby has something in his nose and when she goes to get it out it is red like dried blood.  And the reason that I am back on this form for answers is because today, both of my ears are closed up, feels like I am on an airplane and there is alot of pressure on them.  I pop them but every thing still sounds muffeled.  I feel dizzy and every since all this first started after the fling, I just do not feel like my self.  Its like I am in a dream all the time.  I do not have the answers for none of this. PLEASE EVERYONE HELP.  I AM TIRED OF GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS.  IF WE ARE POSITIVE I WOULD JUST LIKE TO KNOW.  IF NOT, I WISH ALL OF THIS WOULD JUST GO AWAY!!!

[Teak]

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[peldoe]

Your blood test says you're negative so you are when they took your blood. You probably have some other problems with your body. Tell your doctor what's wrong with you and see if the treatment works for you. If it doesn't after 2/3 months, go to another doctor for a second opinion. You have a daughter to look after so take care of yourself and it's no use regretting should you ever be HIV positive.

[Teak]

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