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Please help me, guide me!!
Dear all,
I had sexual encounter (unprotected oral and protected vaginal intercourse) with a call girl on June 2014. The experience have had very strong impact on me. No matter how much I try but the fear of having HIV from that constantly haunts me. Its like that fear is stuck deep inside my thought process. When ever someone/somewhere related topic such as blood, sex, comdom, prostitute or anything else pops up I start to revise my experience and then the fear builds up.
I keep looking in my body for rashes hoping I don't see anything. But even a small red dot makes me worried. Recently I had few small tiny painless red dots here and there around my chest and shoulder area.
Talking about swollen lymph nodes, since my exposure I had them twice on my throat. That did scare me. I am prone to phyrangytis since few years. Hence to I do have throat infection at times. But the same thing happening after exposure is too difficult to handle mentally.
Am a married person with a child. So when I see their face I really feel guilty and regret my encounter.
All of these are hammering my courage to go for test. What can help me move on and how?
Please help!!
I had sexual encounter (unprotected oral and protected vaginal intercourse) with a call girl on June 2014. The experience have had very strong impact on me. No matter how much I try but the fear of having HIV from that constantly haunts me. Its like that fear is stuck deep inside my thought process. When ever someone/somewhere related topic such as blood, sex, comdom, prostitute or anything else pops up I start to revise my experience and then the fear builds up.
I keep looking in my body for rashes hoping I don't see anything. But even a small red dot makes me worried. Recently I had few small tiny painless red dots here and there around my chest and shoulder area.
Talking about swollen lymph nodes, since my exposure I had them twice on my throat. That did scare me. I am prone to phyrangytis since few years. Hence to I do have throat infection at times. But the same thing happening after exposure is too difficult to handle mentally.
Am a married person with a child. So when I see their face I really feel guilty and regret my encounter.
All of these are hammering my courage to go for test. What can help me move on and how?
Please help!!
Thank you very much diver. Your words make me feel better. Yes actually am a very faithful and responsible. Just on that particular day I got caught up in wrong place at wrong time and in wrong frame of mind. I never ever thought I would be cheating to my wife. But it happened though I never thought of it.
But since then this whole HIV fear is disturbing me. Sometimes I feel very sad and low on energy. But I try my best to keep my mind engaged.
I know few people who have sex with so many people but still relax and happily share their encounters. When I compare myself I do feel am over analysing which in return is causing worries.
Once again thank you for your reply.
But since then this whole HIV fear is disturbing me. Sometimes I feel very sad and low on energy. But I try my best to keep my mind engaged.
I know few people who have sex with so many people but still relax and happily share their encounters. When I compare myself I do feel am over analysing which in return is causing worries.
Once again thank you for your reply.
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Relax ! You had protected vaginal sex and your protection did not fail during the sex. You are safe and protected. Unprotected oral sex does not put you at HIV risk.
Since you are a good person by nature, it is your guilt that keeps you uncomfortable and scared. Though you do not need a test because your exposure was non existent, I would suggest you to get yourself tested for an antibody test any time now and collect your conclusive and final report. This I am suggesting only to lay your worries to rest permanently, otherwise you do not need any test. The symptoms you mentioned, no not related to HIV
Since you are a good person by nature, it is your guilt that keeps you uncomfortable and scared. Though you do not need a test because your exposure was non existent, I would suggest you to get yourself tested for an antibody test any time now and collect your conclusive and final report. This I am suggesting only to lay your worries to rest permanently, otherwise you do not need any test. The symptoms you mentioned, no not related to HIV
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