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Please help...Oral with ejaculation WITH cut in mouth

After the Super bowl I was drunk.  I still am toatlly baffled for what made me make such an awful decision.  I answered a post to craigs list and drove (but on the way I bit my cheek pretty good while chewing some candy) and gave some 20 year old kid a bj.  He ejaculated in my mouth and I spit it out.  It was the worst thing I have ever done.  I immediatley felt sick.  I didn't even realize until the next day the danger of what I did.  For some reason I always thought you couldn't catch hiv through oral.  Never in my life have I ever even thought of doing that before.  I am happily married with 3 young kids.  I've never had thoughts of cheating let alone doing it.  Now I find myself scared to death.  I find my self pacing and unable to concentrate on anything.  I haven't been able to get away from the internet.  I have learned so much about HIV I never knew exhisted.  This is some really scary stuff.  I asked him in my email and also in person if he had any stds and he said no and that he'd been tested.  But who's to say how honest he is being.  He is a guy and he wanted a bj.  Before i was married I've told many white lies to women before to get them to sleep with me...but nothing that serious that could hurt her.  The guilt and the worry is totally killing me.  He won't retun any emails to me.  I've asked him to confirm he has no diseases through email...and nothing.  Makes me think he was lying even more.  If he does have hiv I am gonner.  I am so pissed off at myself.  I love my kids and my wife so much.  How bad are my chances if he is HIV+?  Should I abstain from having sex with my wife?  
I posted this a few minutes ago in the wrong forum.  Thanks.
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Teak answered very briefly earlier.  As I stated earlier I am extremely nervous.  The more I read the worse it gets.  I realize nobody can predict if I have contracted hiv through the experience I described.  But if there how much worse are my odds with a fresh bite wound on my inner cheek?  Thanks.
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I know.  That's another thing too.  I always pride myself on being responsable by not drinking and driving. I made a bunch of terrible decisions that night.  I have learned alot about myself and realize I need to make changes.  And the guilt is just awful.  
So you really believe I have nothing to worry about as far a me contracting HIV?  It's the bit cheek that really has me freaked out.  
The thought of everything I did that night makes me sick to my stomach.  I wish it was just a dream but I know it wasn't.  Thank you Teak for your reply.  I've done a lot of reading in this forum the last few days and you have helped so many people.  You are really a great person.  Thanks again.
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Drinking, driving and guilt is the only problem you have.
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