I take full responsibility and know that this whole ordeal is my fault. Now that that is said, my questions have to do with HIV, home access test, and symptoms.
First, I had unprotected sex with a premiscuous coworker about two and half months ago. Three days after the encounter I developed a sore throat, swollen glands, and a very fatigue body. At the time I blamed it on myself for leaving the window open at my apt, for sleeping in the cold has given me the same symptoms before. My mind started racing when I discovered one lesion/sore, not sure what is was, on the shaft of my penis. At this point I started doing my research and thinking maybe a little too hard. I also developed more acne, particularly near above my eyes, and on my lips,more then before, which I blamed on stress and lack of sleep due to anxiety/thinking. I went to the local health dept. at 24 days and got tested for everything but herpes, which I suspected the lesion was from.
After about 10 days the lesions/mark, went away and a scar white in color was left on my penis. Oddly enough, this wasn't my biggest concern. My biggest concern was my test, which all came back negative. As time went by, I became more and more worried because I read more and more. I then decided to get tested again with the home access test, which uses 2nd generation Elisa at 52 days, aka, 7 weeks. I did this because I lost about 7 pounds, i thought to be anxiety, lack of intrest in eating, and work. The test came back negative.
It is now about 80 days since the encounter and have become more worried than ever. After gaining the weight back, I lost it again. I also have about 5 days of shortness of breath. I've experienced shortness of breath before but never that long, one whole day at the most. Along with this shortness of breath, I noticed yesterday a white, flesh colored rash like development on my arm. I don't think it's a rash because it's not red, pink or purple. The development matches my skin tone exactly but I can notice it. Along with this, I've also had a bump, though small, develop on my lip. I just purchased another home access test because I can't wait for a doctor apt or planned parenthood apt. My question revolves around my symptoms, which I know many say can't be trusted, so why are they listed?, and how confident should I be about my 7 week test knowing that it is a second generation Elisa and the window period?
Perhaps I'm just fishing for something that I want to hear, but I could really hear some input from someone who is informed and isn't just speculating from things they've read, because that's all I seem to be doing to myself