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To people whom condom were broken during Vaginal Sex. & Teak
Can you tell me how your condom looks like when its broken?
I had protected sex with a lady at massage parlor, I am freaking out because before we started the sex, I asked her do you have condom? She immediately took it out from her mouth. It seemed like she had it in her mouth before She entered the room. I am afraid that, the condom might have been broken due to her teeth. Although, when I was about to come, I pulled it out and came inside the condom. It seemed like the sperm still stayed inside, there wasn't any leakage.
Because I had a condom on, but does my risk increase because I do not know whether the condom was a latex or not? does it increase because i'm not sure what brand of condom it was or how old it was/expired, etc?
Extremely Worried!!!!!
I had protected sex with a lady at massage parlor, I am freaking out because before we started the sex, I asked her do you have condom? She immediately took it out from her mouth. It seemed like she had it in her mouth before She entered the room. I am afraid that, the condom might have been broken due to her teeth. Although, when I was about to come, I pulled it out and came inside the condom. It seemed like the sperm still stayed inside, there wasn't any leakage.
Because I had a condom on, but does my risk increase because I do not know whether the condom was a latex or not? does it increase because i'm not sure what brand of condom it was or how old it was/expired, etc?
Extremely Worried!!!!!
I just want to say that even though when I posted my original risk, Dr. HHH or Dr. Bob said I was suffering from guilt, but I just didn't get it. Xhost, you are very eloquent with words and what you said about guilt really put a lot of things in perspective for me. Perhaps we should all stop punishing ourselves and move on and do better, like you said. Thanks for that.
I believe you are a 100% right . It seems a very large amount of us are going through this and no matter if it is 1 hour or 1 month you will always be able to see another post of someone else going through the same thing . This forum has open my eyes to a whole new prospective . For me i felt like i was the only one in the world going through it , and that wasn't the case . I always wanted to believe i have it and than you look at all these websites and they pour these symptoms at you . Sore throat U got hiv . Cough U got hiv White tongue U have hiv . You wore a red shirt today U have hiv . Guilt is one of the biggest punishments . That thought if i could just do it over again ! So many times U think about what you have done . Than everyone around you looks like a saint. Sometimes its hard to rationalize your thoughts . You know no risk but you can't believe it , I personally am the contributing factor of most of my symptoms . I think about one of them and the others would go away .Everyday i feel a little better and less stressed about it . We all make mistakes like you said . But my guilt it will always be there because i deserve that guilt . I will just have to push that far back away in my head and whenever I think about something immoral that will come back in my thoughts again . That is my punishment . Will i ever be in a situation like this again NO . Will i ever forget any of these forums and the responses i have gotten on them NO . You will never meet me and i will never meet you but what you have typed will always be with me . It will be a constant constant reminder that there are other people out there just like me experiencing and will experience the same things .
Chilly,
You and original poster are a pretty good representation of where my head was at during my own scare. I left out the part where my one night encounter was also an infidelity. I'd never done it before, and it hit me pretty hard. Thing is, you and others have well defined moral boundaries, and when you cross them, you tend to punish yourselves. A perfect way to do this is...guess. Ok, you don't have to, I'll tell you: convince yourself that you have HIV. What could be worse? And, from the standpoint of punishing yourself, what could be better?
After all, if you somehow, against all odds, contracted HIV, well, think about the utter devastation that would cause: to you, your wife, your family. Arg, the possibilities to really flog yourself are endless, aren't they, when you think about it like that. And I did (though in my case it was a girlfriend), and I bet you do too.
Thing is, no matter how much you want to really hit yourself over the head with a shovel, HIV just doesn't work that way. Just because you feel incredibly guilty and incredibly bad about yourself, that doesn't make HIV jump through an impermeable membrane and into your penis and then into the cells it likes to infect in your urethra. No, guilt cannot and does not alter the the fundamental rules of physics.
I know, I apologize, because I realize, you should have gotten it for the horrible thing you did. But, you didn't. Sound pretty harsh, doesn't it? But isn't that what you are telling yourself every day? That you deserve to get this terrible disease? Now, that's harsh, especially for being....dare I say it...a human being, prone to making mistakes that human beings have made throughout the long centuries that we've been sentient enough to think about morality.
Not to pile on too much, but I mention this because it helped me get things in perspective, but do the people you love deserve to be punished as well? Wouldn't they be punished if you had HIV? And aren't they being punished by your inability to accept your mistake, learn from it and move on, firm in your resolve to do better? Because, and this is just a thought, that's really the only thing we can do after a mistake, isn't it? So, go ahead, feel badly about yourself, that's what decent people with a conscience do, right? And then, forgive yourself when you feel it is appropriate. Believe it or not, there will come a time when it will feel appropriate.
What you shouldn't do is to make a bad situation that much worse by wallowing in your guilt, allowing it to effect not only you but the people you love. Think about that for a while and I bet you that finally, at some point, you will come to the conclusion that I am right.
This has to be one of the best reassurances i have seen on this forum , because i know there are alot of people out there like me that even though i wore a condom i still obsessed over that one thing .(Condom breakage ) I have replayed my event with the csw in my mind at least a 100 times a day wondering if it broke . Even though i knew it didn't . But that one scary what if will always be there . If i test even though i was at know risk i still proably would not be able to beleive it and proably will be one of those individuals that will require many tests to believe it . For my myself i believe that is my punishment for INFIDELITY and i will live with that forever . God bless .
A couple of thoughts on your situation. First, I wouldn't spend much time, if any at all, worrying about having contracted HIV from the situation that you described.
Most sex workers understand the mechanics of HIV transmission, and also know that their jobs may put them into contact with more bodily fluids than most. For that reason, as did the woman with whom you had sex, most are smart enough to insist on condom usage, and they understand which type of condom to use.
Given that I am pretty sure it was a latex condom, this means that you had protected sex, which, as the name implies, protects you from any number of sexually transmitted diseases, including HIV. That's a good thing.
As to the condom breaking, if you haven't experienced such a thing, it is sort of hard to figure out if it broke or not. The good news on that front is that when a condom does break during sex, it will typically do so not with a whimper, but a bang. In other words, it pops, or shreds, or something equally catastrophic, to the point that it is fairly noticeable to the wearer.
The common wisdom, in case you haven't heard it before, is that as long as you wear protection for vaginal and anal sex, you will not be at risk of contracting HIV from intercourse. Seems like a good rule of thumb to me. Of course, on rare occasions, a condom may break. But, as I said, it is almost always an obvious thing when this happens. In your case, you said you did not see any leakage from the condom. This is a pretty good indicator that there was no means for fluids to leak out, meaning that the condom stayed intact throughout your sexual episode.
Also, along those lines, you say your provider is the one who removed the condom. She had you wear one, which indicates that she is as concerned for her health as you are. If the condom had indeed broken, what do you think her reaction would have been? I am willing to bet she would not have nonchalantly thrown it away and waved you goodnight. My bet is that she would have reacted in some manner, and probably started to grill you about your testing history. That makes sense to me.
So, to sum up, personally, I don't see much to worry about here. I understand that you may remain worried even after the reassurances you have read here. If that is the case, first, try to look at this in a rational way, setting emotion aside. I think that you will be forced to admit, once you have done so, that, no matter your emotional state, the chances of you having contracted HIV from this are slimmer than slim, to non-existent. If you feel you must, by all means, go ahead and take an HIV test. Nothing wrong with doing so. In fact, in case you did not know, all sexually active people should have at least one HIV test per year - that's official US health policy. If you want to take one, Ok, it'll be negative, but just consider it your annual test and get it out of the way.
I tend to write a lot, so I hope you got something out of this. I wish you luck, though it doesn't sound like you need it.
Most sex workers understand the mechanics of HIV transmission, and also know that their jobs may put them into contact with more bodily fluids than most. For that reason, as did the woman with whom you had sex, most are smart enough to insist on condom usage, and they understand which type of condom to use.
Given that I am pretty sure it was a latex condom, this means that you had protected sex, which, as the name implies, protects you from any number of sexually transmitted diseases, including HIV. That's a good thing.
As to the condom breaking, if you haven't experienced such a thing, it is sort of hard to figure out if it broke or not. The good news on that front is that when a condom does break during sex, it will typically do so not with a whimper, but a bang. In other words, it pops, or shreds, or something equally catastrophic, to the point that it is fairly noticeable to the wearer.
The common wisdom, in case you haven't heard it before, is that as long as you wear protection for vaginal and anal sex, you will not be at risk of contracting HIV from intercourse. Seems like a good rule of thumb to me. Of course, on rare occasions, a condom may break. But, as I said, it is almost always an obvious thing when this happens. In your case, you said you did not see any leakage from the condom. This is a pretty good indicator that there was no means for fluids to leak out, meaning that the condom stayed intact throughout your sexual episode.
Also, along those lines, you say your provider is the one who removed the condom. She had you wear one, which indicates that she is as concerned for her health as you are. If the condom had indeed broken, what do you think her reaction would have been? I am willing to bet she would not have nonchalantly thrown it away and waved you goodnight. My bet is that she would have reacted in some manner, and probably started to grill you about your testing history. That makes sense to me.
So, to sum up, personally, I don't see much to worry about here. I understand that you may remain worried even after the reassurances you have read here. If that is the case, first, try to look at this in a rational way, setting emotion aside. I think that you will be forced to admit, once you have done so, that, no matter your emotional state, the chances of you having contracted HIV from this are slimmer than slim, to non-existent. If you feel you must, by all means, go ahead and take an HIV test. Nothing wrong with doing so. In fact, in case you did not know, all sexually active people should have at least one HIV test per year - that's official US health policy. If you want to take one, Ok, it'll be negative, but just consider it your annual test and get it out of the way.
I tend to write a lot, so I hope you got something out of this. I wish you luck, though it doesn't sound like you need it.
Anyone else would like to comment on this?
By the way, I am very confused because with the protected sex (condom) sometimes Dr. HHH say "No Risk". And sometimes, he says it is too low to measure but "Of course I cannot guarantee you won't be the exception, and given the potential risk despite condoms"
So, really does condom = 100% no risk?
Have you guy seen anyone tested positive with protected sex (condom)?
Thanks
By the way, I am very confused because with the protected sex (condom) sometimes Dr. HHH say "No Risk". And sometimes, he says it is too low to measure but "Of course I cannot guarantee you won't be the exception, and given the potential risk despite condoms"
So, really does condom = 100% no risk?
Have you guy seen anyone tested positive with protected sex (condom)?
Thanks
no if you had sex with a condom and it didnot break you are 100% sure u did not catch hiv by this encounter, forget about it and keep protecting yourself u are ok
its not good to rely on symptoms, most of the pepole here experience symptoms and when they test they are neg, anxiety and many other diseases have the same symptoms as those in hiv, test is the real answer if someone is pos or neg, and some people with hiv do no feel symptoms at all.
Because I had a condom on, but does my risk increase because I do not know whether the condom was a latex or not? does it increase because i'm not sure what brand of condom it was or how old it was/expired, etc?
If you do not experience any symptoms, does it means that you do not have ARS? and the chance of getting HIV would be lower in this case since they say 2/3 people would get symptoms if they are actually infected...is this true?
no if the sperm stayed inside the condom the condom didnot break, when a condom breaks you can see a big a hole or big tear at top or at side, u donnot have to worry u had protected sex
I am not sure as I have never seen a broken condom before...The CSW took the condom off for me, I didnt inspect it. But as I stated, when I was about to come, I pulled it out and came inside the condom. It seemed like the sperm still stayed inside, there wasn't any leakage. It seemed like there wasn't any tear.
I am worried that there might be small holes due to her teeth as she has the condom in her mouth.
I am worried that there might be small holes due to her teeth as she has the condom in her mouth.
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