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Tried to be safe - now I can't breath or leave my house, please help

Yesterday morning (31 hours past exposure) I had receptive anal sex with another man.  We are both 25 years old.  I am white and he is black.  I've known him for awhile but don't know him well at all.  We used a condom.  About a minute into it, he began thrusting very aggressively and then stopped suddenly and pulled out.  He did not ejaculate, and apparently pulled away immediately as he felt it happen.  We were using lubricant.  I know based on the intensity and his size that I had some tearing and there was a little blood present in my stool later that day.  

I talked to him later that day and he told me he was negative and to stop freaking out because nothing happened.  I know he gets around a good bit more than I do (go figure my luck on having my one night of fun all year end with a condom failure), but I also know that he only tops (never bottoms), always insists on wearing condoms, and hopefully, based on those two factors has very low probability for being infected himself.  Or is anything I'm saying even relevant?

I tried calling all over town about PEP treatment and every place I called seems to have no clue what I am talking about, not urgent care, not Planned Parenthood, no one.  I know that I had a risk to some degree but please help me.  What should I do?  I have been having a 24-hour long anxiety attack and it doesn't seem like it will be letting up any time soon.  Can hardly breath or focus - 6 months of this?  I'd rather die.  I don't want anyone to lie to me, but do need help rationalizing the gravity of the situation.  

Anything would be greatly appreciated!
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Yes we hear that everyday and people like yourself continue to come with the same story.
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Seeing as I have noticed some discrepancies online as to the risk level posed by a condom break during anal sex when sex is stopped immediately (short exposure length) and there is no ejaculation – I have seen everything from very low risk to it being equal risk of unprotected anal sex with ejaculation – I will return and post my results at 6 weeks.  Hopefully that may take some of the stress away of others in a similar situation, assuming it is negative of course.
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Don't fret over it, keep yourself busy and the time will fly by. Make sure your continue to use condoms.
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I guess that was what I was afraid of.  Having nothing more than to wait 6-8 weeks.I guess I’d hope there might be within my facts, factors that diminished the risk or made the exposure a near astronomical improbability.  I feel like logically I know it is low risk. Yet, if someone offered me and a thousand other people a million dollars with the only catch being that one of us would be infected with HIV, I’m pretty sure I’d turn the money down.  
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You can obtain your baseline test and obtain a conclusive test result 3 months post exposure. Condom breaks are low risk situations, but you still need to test to know your status.
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Yes, I've never been in a situation where a condom has broken before.  I don't know what is relevant and what isn't.  Like I don't know if it matters that he did not ejaculate or that he stopped immediately or what the likelihood he had it in the first place is.
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You had condom protected anal sex and you had a condom failure?
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This was anal sex.
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You never had an exposure, HIV is not transmitted by oral sex.
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