Unthinkable act of insanity.....

A week to the day 8 hours before my flight out of Thailand, i decided to go into a massage parlour.......Schedules been hectic......The masseuse who looked in her later 20's early 30's came in & started off with a back & foot massage...using a cool feeling massage oil......

After about 20 minutes she requested me to turn over & suddenly asked me whether i needed a handjob.....God knows what i was thinking (guess i was not thinking) i obliged.......For some reason though i couldn't get myself erect immediately....so took oil in her hands & started rubbing it vigourously over my penis, massaging the head of my penis & the opening.....with her bare hands which had the oil....or cream...looked like Oil....

Now visibly i did not notice any flowing blood on her fingers or palms.....but i'm not sure about it as i did not check her fingers correctly before she started the handjob....(guess i should have)

However soon i was erect & then this resulted in the final climax. Her hands during this handjob was all over my penis....If she did have any cuts or bruises or any cuts she would have acquired during the massage or recently would there a risk of HIV contraction from this sorta incident...& yeah also what about the spin of the fact that there could have been a cut or a nick on her fingers or ever some small amount of blood....

Now here comes the even scarier part.......I pack up & get home on the flight & the next thing i know my girlfriend meets me at the airport...we go over to her place.....& sh'es missed me i can see...& we do it...i have unprotected intercourse with her......well she's tested for sure...so am i...before this massage incident happened...

Is it possible that i have done the unthinkable of contracting HIV from the massuese (if she did have HIV & has infected from blood or cuts on her hands) & now passed it onto my girlfriend after having sex with her...

I feel overcome with guilt...I've developed total weakness ever since....can't think straight....even though i may have messed up i wouldn't want cause any source of concern for my girlfriend...I Love her.....i guess i was just not thinking straight & got carried away in the heat of the moment with the handjob.....I'm terrified....what's gonna happen...I really wish the experts her can come to my rescue......

[brendoncuba]

I would like to add....sorry for my english......it's not very good......

[Victoria60]

till date.. there is no reported case of HIV for receiving handjob...blood or noblood does not matter.. HIV virus does not live outside human boday for long time..

you have not done anything that put's you and your girlfriend at risk.

relax and move on with life. , donate to some NGO or charity who work in spreading AIDS awareness/ research.

[brendoncuba]

Hi Victoria, thanx so much for your reply......i was beside myself as i was under the impression that i may have put my girlfriend at risk as well...........

Would you then consider any testing or follow - up to make sure everything is alright...

I'm only worried about the presence of blood or cuts on her hands.....& i did not use a condom for the handjob........guess there's now lotta guilt inside me !!!

[joggen]

Before receiving a handjob, it is not necessary to check the CSW's hands for blood or cuts, wear condoms, or take any other actions, other than sit back and relax, as HIV and STDs require sexual penetration for transmission.

No testing is needed.

Your guilt is getting the best of you, that's it.

[diver58]

Ditto like everyone else said, your risk is an "absolute zero" HIV did not, doed not and will not spread through handjob., You are safe, no need for any kinf of testing

[Victoria60]

Testing is not required.

[brendoncuba]

Hi Guys, thanx for your replies...i was only cooncerned coz during the handjob the massager girl......retracted my foreskin...& then pressed the exposed region of my penis with her bare hands....i did not observe any cust or blood on her hand...but it's just a worry that if there had been any blood or small freshly acquired cuts on her hand would there be a risk ???

Now about 11 days since the incident i've developed a kinda weakness & some loose stools....are these in any way indicative of HIV ?? or is it just stress playing it's games on my mind ????

[Teak]

At no time were you at risk of contracting HIV. HIV is not transmitted by masturbation. What ever is going on with you has nothing to do with HIV.

[brendoncuba]

Teak thanx for your reply...........Now i am feeling much better..........after the advise given to me.....I will not post again but finally wanted to just know :

So just that i'm careful in the future :

Handjobs are safe no matter what the circumstances......& even if there are fresh cuts on the person performing the massage.....since the Blood is exposed to the air...transmission cannot occur ??? is this right ???

i was mainly worried in my scenario coz i though blood from a fresh or oozing cut on her finger would have immediately come in contact with my urethra thus causing a risk of transmission...without there being much time for the blood to be exposed to the air... i was concerned whether this would pose any risk....

Thanx for all the help.....will only now check back once to check your reply on this  will then return to my normal routine...you guys have been great

[brendoncuba]

The Only reason i am concerned is that now after about 17 days post the incident i've developed symptoms of extreme fatigue, a feverish feeling most times & aching teeth....something i generally get during the flu ?

Just worried that the blood from the cut of the massage girl would have flown directly into my exposed urethra..without having any time for exposure to the air when she pressed against the head of the penis & the opening after retracting the foreskin...

Are any of these concurrent with early HIV ? also there is severe tingling & numbness in the feet & hands.........

The post 1 week HIV DNA PCR test i took returned negative....

A 2 week HIV Duo Combi Test i took (they said 4rth generation Elisa) also returned Negative....

Just really hope there's no risk at all....coz the hand job i received was really unconventional....

[Teak]

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