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Very worried about HIV! Please HELP!

Very worried about HIV! Please HELP!

Ok, first of all I'm going to start off by calling myself a worrier in general. I'm a heterosexual male, and I didn't become sexually active until college, and I hate to say that I pretty much forced myself into losing my virginity because I felt like I had to. I always practiced safe sex and have only had sex with 3 people total. However, on 5/6 I was with a girl my age. We didn't have sex, but for about 5-10 seconds i had rubbed my penis around the opening of her vagina. She told me she was on her period and proceeded to give me oral sex. I didn't think anything of it for weeks (no symptoms, she seems like a normal, clean girl), but when I started hanging out with my current girlfriend, I made myself paranoid about a protected sexual encounter i had in January and if I could have HIV from that. I thought a simple blood test would make me stop worrying once and for all. On 6/5 I got a test at a local doctor's office and a few days later I got back an INDETERMINATE result. They told me that they only did a Western Blot (almost positive they didnt do an ELISA), but they assured me I was still negative. I recalled the unprotected genital to genital contact from a month before.I had never been more freaked out in my life. I called a place that does rapid tests, but they said to come back after 3 months. I ended up going to a local hospital where they have their own lab for these tests and they came back with a NEGATIVE anti-body test. This temporarily put my mind at ease but i started worrying again a couple weeks later because i thought I may have gotten the test too soon. about 9 weeks after the exposure, around 7/7, i went to get another rapid test where they drew blood from my finger and it came back once again NEGATIVE. However, the people there told me to wait 3 months atleast before I could be sure. I still have about 3 weeks to go and I have completely lost it. I start to picture myself having to live with HIV and I have lost motivation in school and almost everything else. Although I've had 2 negative results, one after a month, one after 9 weeks, I still have a feeling that i could be infected.
   I read that tests today give accurate results in like 6-12 weeks or even sometimes 25 days. I've started to convince myself that my immune system may be naturally weaker (sinus congestion for 8 months, constant rash on foot for years, and more recently I correlate mosquito bites and scabs taking longer too heal than the internet says) as a sign that my body would take longer to create antibodies if i had it. This would make the 2 tests i took meaningless. I can't control the paranoia and fear in my head, all because of that first indeterminate test. I just want to put my mind at ease as soon as I can before I ruin other parts of my life due to my anxiety. Thank you so much for your time.
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it is HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHLY unlikely that your 9 week negative will change at the 3 month mark

expect a negative
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