am i in danger ?

[imsoscared1980]

Hi guys,

         11 weeks ago i regrettably had sex with a pros. It was my 1st time. Needless to say i became paranoid and went for a blood test 2 weeks later. I tested positive for HERPES 1 and negative for HIV. on Week 8 i went for a second test and tested positive for Herpes 1 and 2, negative for HIV. I had a very brief intercourse with her, it was only like maybe 20 secs with condom. No kissing and no Oral. I do remember i had some cat flea bite on my feet, and the highest risk i could think of was when i touched her clitoris for about 6 secs. Then she asked me to get on with it, and so i tried to tear open the condom pack, but i couldn't so i ended up using my teeth, my lips touch the spot of the condom pack where my fingers touched before (the one that touched her vagina). It was like a 3 secs contact because she grabbed the pack from me and tore it herself.
         Can i get HIV from this incident ? i am extremely scared now. I dont know wht to think anymore, i mean i already contracted both Herpes, who knows wht else she might have. These 3 months i was extremely terrified, i got depressed most of the time and panicked several times. I cant function properly.
         Often i panicked when i experience symptom that resembled HIV's. So far i have these symptoms
1) Before that night with the prost, i was recovering from a serious flu. And now, 11 weeks later, i still have runny nose. A very mild one.
2) Most of the times i have a feeling which i dont know how to describe. My heart beat feels different, slightly more rapid than normal, and its feels like its beating harder. Kind of like the feeling when ur very anxious or excited.
3) Mild fatigue, nausea(especially when im depressed or panicking).
4) My left arms feels slightly weaker
5) Depressed

     I dont know wat is happening with me, but something definitely feels wrong. Im going for my 12 week test on the 6 of July. I hope and pray to god that ill be alright. This experience have taught me how valuable life is, and i made a promise to god that if i get through this alright. I will live my life to the fullest.
  

[imsoscared1980]

i have a few other symptoms but i would think its not related to HIV,

1) suicidal thoughts (i was imagining jumping off my condo if i tested positive in week12)          
2) i often have a feeling which i looked up on the internet called malaise
3) Swollen lymph node under my jaw which i attributed to my mouth sores from herpes.

[wtfman]

hey bro here me out

first off if you used a rubber, your good man, no worries, as for the suicise thoughts I would recommend getting over it why would you want to kill yourself if we all die someday anyway.  Even if you were hiv positive (WHICH YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY NOT) there would be no reason to kill yourself in fact, its a better reason to start living.  Living right I mean, sitting here scared is not what I want to do for the rest of my life, I have been scared long enough man trust me.  All of those suicidal thoughts was an everyday thing for a while, but I have learned that losers lay down and die, winners get up and fight... So my advice is dust it off and live bro.  Life is too short to make kill ourselves live while you can its a wonderful ride, if you let it be what it'll be. and roll on.  Just remember that one day, no telling when, everyone moves on, so dont think about death think about life, and what you got man... If its twenty years make it a good twenty years, and if it is 70 years what a life.  Whatever it is..... live it my brotha, live it good... =)

Be strong man

[imsoscared1980]

Thank you my friend, for those encouraging words, but im still afraid, i guess all will be cleared after the 6th of July, for about 5 days now, my heart is beating slightly rapid and hard. And im also easily fatigue. Im so scared now ... this symptoms is suspicious.

[LIZZIE LOU]

FEAR IS NOT FACT ! ! !

you had PROTECTED sex and did NOT put yourself at risk for contracting hiv...PERIOD.    nothing else you have described put you at risk either.

you never needed to test and dont need further testing.

[JesseZ7]

you have just had what they call an anxiety attack relax your body and deep breaths in and out/ in through your nose out through mouth , just slowely now close your eyes for a bit go to happy place fall asleep if you have to just relax my friend and all will be good when you test negative ;)

[imsoscared1980]

JesseZ7 and Lizzie, thanks for ur advise,

         But i really dont think its anxiety attack, my heart have been beating abnormally non stop for a week now ... and i mean like 24 hours a day. I will keep u guys updated on my condition. Thanks and god bless. I heard there's a cure for HIV undergoing research now in Houston, i pray to GOD that they will succeed and hope that no big pharma CEO will sabotage their research.

[Vance2335]

They are not close to a cure, many different areas are doing a lot of research and testing but no break throughs yet. Trust me if a company comes up with a cure there will be onone standing in it's way.

A heartbeat like your I would suggest seeing a Dr for. It is not HIV related because you had no risk, but worth getting it checked out. Stress can take it's toll on the heart.

[LIZZIE LOU]

MOVE ON

[imsoscared1980]

Guys, i went for my 80th day test for HIV, the results came back non reactive. Im so very relieved. I want to thank all who have advised me. Your words really meant a lot to me. It helped me to think and decide with a clear mind. Im also very touched that there are people that are sincere in helping total strangers to deal with their problems.
       Funny thing is before the test and sometime after posting in this forum i have come to accept whatever happens, happens. I will accept the result and will try to live my life the best i could. I was certain that i had HIV already.
       Now, i feel much better, as if a huge weight have been lifted off my back, but i think the excessive worrying might have caused some permanent damage to my heart. As now, though not as often as before (before i was experiencing heart palpitation for 10+ hours at a time) i still experience mild palpitations. And weakness always follow during an episode of palpitation. Doctors said it might be caused by depression. But i feel great now. How could i still have palpitations ? i dont get it.
        So when Lizzie says  "FEAR IS NOT FACT ! ! !" i regret not listening to her. The human mind can do terrible things to our body. I will get further testing to determine the real reason behind this palpitations.
        I would like to thanks u guys again. I really appreciate it. Hopefully no one have to go through what i went through before realizing how precious life is.

P/S: I know this question might irked some of u guys, but i just got to know. Is a 80th days test conclusive ?

THANK YOU

[LIZZIE LOU]

there are numerous things that can cause palpitations...one being ANXIETY.

continue to work with your doctor...