Hey there just wanting to find someone that knows lots about hiv and transmission, ive had a lot of fear about hiv being a gay male, but its recently been taking over my thoughts even more, I slept with some one in may of this year i was the inserter and i wore a condom, but he performed oral on me, and now i have 9 out of 10 of the tell tale symptoms of ars or seroconversion, I read this site from active beat, 13 signs you may have HIV, I am not trying to create fear in others, I am just living in fear, I have been thru a lot in my life and cant seem to shake this fear of HIV, I have been through many tests over the years and everytime i get tested i get fearful, ya i no normal, and i even went through a scare where i slept with someone with hiv not knowing until contacted by clinic to get tested that completely took over my life and after quite awhile i made it through that after a large amount of tests, all negative of course, but now it grew in fear again, I know i hear oral isnt a risk or protective sex isnt a risk, but I swear i have most to all symptoms of ars and im fearfull again, I do not wanna get tested if i do not want to since testing took over my life for so long last year, my last test was last sept and it was negative, my last sexual encounter is what i listed above, again in may i had insertive intercourse with a man with brief oral and kissing, and now i am afraid with all the symptoms, the muscle and joint pain (fibromyaligia) headaches, pain urinating, bad fatigue, nausea, slight rash by the areas of moisture on the body especially by gentials on my inner upper thigh to be exact not eating as much, so please someone come on and reassure me that my anxiety is taking control again and that protective sex with a condoms brief oral and kissing is not a risk for hiv transmission!!!!